Today is the last day of the school holidays......that's mean in another 6 hours.......i'll have to go back to school...haiz.........Juz now.....my parents and i went to KTAR to watch the"SGM Malam Mesra Kebudayaan".....Quite enjoying ke.....de performance........Today morning oso we got MKKP meeting........lastly.....i manage to officially resign from my posts......i am really glad....n i hope tat after my resignation.....i can concentrate at my studies......le....Actually i feel quite soli cuz my resignation will make them hav to cut down one of the PL and oso to reorganise the patrol again.......i am so SORRY la..... but that is not what i want....!!! in the meeting...me and my friends are being punished....to do de "frog jump"........so painful la.....i hate doing tat...........i really dun not UNDERSTAND.....why should i be punished? For wat is the punishment? I am so confusing la.......now my legs still feel very pain...wondering how am i going to march.....sometimes i really dun like to attend any of the meeting tat is organise by the SCOUT....i will be very "geram" whenever i talk or heard about SCOUT de things........ok la......i hope tat.........from now on.......there is nothing about SCOUT in my blogs.......... ok la....i wan go to check my mails la....gud nite my blog.....hehehehe......

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Wow......today hav been a happy day for me.......as me and my friends went to ipoh...one day trip..hehe!!!! At around 9.30am...ivis and her bro.....cum and fetch me....after tat, we go fetch carrot, salestie n kira.........then we go directly to the bus station.......on our way there...we saw the "kid" cycling home....i think ! we all gather up......n wait for de others...then swet yee came...n later on....LMC oso reach there aredi....the bus to ipoh hav arrive lo.....then LMC say tat de "kid" will reach in 30 seconds....within 30 seconds....de "kid" came.....Wow....de "kid" really fast la.....(swet yee was being scolded by the bus conductor.....while the BC is collecting the bus fees......so rude la de BC....haiz.....poor customer service...!!!!)

after a hour....we reach our first destination.....which is the ipoh bus station. There, we take a bus to JJ....as we reach JJ.....we quickly went to the cinema...to buy the tickets....we divided into two groups....one group...which consists of me...ivis..LMC..."kid".....we went to watch "rush hour 3" while the others went to watch "secret" by jay....as our movie started at 1.30pm...so we plan to walk around first...after some while....we decided to hav our lunch first.....we hav our lunch at KFC....cuz ivis got some discount coupons....after finish our meal....we quickly walk to the cinema..as my watch aredi shown 1.25pm...LMC helps us to buy popcorn n soft drinks......the movie is really funny ......xpecially chris tucker....he is juz a funny guy la....having a lot of fun watching this movie........

after that.......we go to look for swet yee n the gang.....we search everywhere but oso din find her...later she send me a sms...n i ask her where she is...she say she is at the food court....four of us went upstair again to look for them....then we walk a while at JJ.....n rush to ipoh parade....i buy a necklace at bum city......i like that necklace very much.........we walk n walk until 6.30pm....we quiclky take a bus n went back to the ipoh bus station.....OO.....we missed de bus....cuz LMc go to toilet....we wait n wait.....then LMC tell us there is something to see under the bridge.....me n salestie went n see....OMG!! wat r the 2 ppl doing....? "memang memalukan....n that two ppl...really rendah akhlaknya" How can they do such a thing in public.....???? won't they feel ashamed? then....they left aredi.....2 bus came.........but the bus dun't wan to "jalan".....a security guard.....was so "geram".....he make a lot of noise.....later on.....a bus came........n we quickly rushed into de bus.........we reach kampar at about 8.50pm......then we wait for ivis's bro....to cum n fetch me.........at last i reach home...lo.......juz after having my dinner n now........i am going to take a bath......n go to bed......wat an enjoyable day in ipoh.....hehe!!

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Today is the forth day of the holiday...but i din feel that i am in a holiday mood.......i am very stress la......many things happen 2day.......2nite...i sms ai nee to tell her tat my bro n i can't come for tomorrow de marching practise...........then she say never mind.....but she reminded us tat thursday n friday still got practise....i then told her that i am not free ma........then i ask her again tat whether i need to come to tis sun de meeting or not? she say we hav to discuss about it.....Wat is tat? she say we hav to discuss about my resignation.....she say if i wanna to resign....i must get all de mkp member de agreement..wo.....haiz.......why so TROUBLESOME???? i juz wanna to resign oli ma....juz agree mei....ok lo....holiday is so boring.....holidays is juz meaningless....i din hav any plan 4 my holidays as my whole week oso got tuition la.....so lazy.... but at least...2moro...i will be going to ipoh....to watch movie la...i think i can relax a bit.....hope i really will....ok la....i wanna continue to do my homework la....so many homework for my holiday la....

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fiNaLLy.....de walk-a-hunt was over !!!! disappointed la.....cuz lose liao....but never mind as i hav a lot of fun during the competition....hehe!!! 2day.....those who take part in the walk-a-hunt oso dun hav to becum the helpers of the carnival as our competition juz ended at around 2pm....we all waited for so long....feel a bit bored while i am waiting.....haiz.......

today morning........i woke up quite early de.....after i hav prepare myself.....i wait for sam sam to find me......cuz we wan go eat breakfast......but finally....i go to find them as they are very late liao.....we all quickly cycle to de "pasar" where we ate our breakfast....we all eat very fast as we scared we will be late.....luckily....we are juz on time when we reached pei yuan (SUWA).....!!!! then..ai nee ask us to "hantar" de "borang kebenaran ibu bapa".....then ai nee giv sum talk lo....we were told to be discipline cuz we all are representing 239th Kinta scout..... at around 7.55am....shok yien ask ai nee whether those who gt walk-a-hunt can leave mei? after ai nee ask us to go....we all 6 team quickly rushed to the basketball court...there, we are given a sticker, a flag....n sum bread....after sum time....the competition begin....many of our school de ppl oso got take part la....example like ah hwa..ah mok..yau kar foo.....hui qing....sundra..mun sing....n etc.

during the competition...we really hav to think n think as the questions are quite difficult de...after answer all the questions.......we juz "hantar" de question paper....lo at around 11.30pm..then we walked back to the basketball court.......there....we waited for so long until i can't follow my parents to ipoh.....so bad la...sob!! so disappointed when none of our team got a prize....n oli wilson got a tin of biscuit (i think la) during the lucky draw....he was so lucky la.....before tat...emily call ai nee n tell her tat our event haven't finish yet......later...emily tell us tat we dun hav to go back to pei yuan after the announcement of the winner....n we were told tat we can go home right after the announcement......so glad tat we dun hav to be de helper....cuz i aredi feel very tired jo....then, sam sam....lion n me cycle back to TBB n we went to hav our lunch together....after tat....lion n i went to somewhere la.....after 30min......we left...n i go home n on9 lo.....but after a while de internet lost connection.....i was so "geram"....n i go watch dvd....."heart of greed" again n again...cuz very best la de story....

i wonder tat....how am i gonna to spend my holidays.....??? but i am sure tat i will go ipoh tis wednesday cuz wan watch movie ma....long time din go ipoh liao......n today miss jo as my parents got go ipoh la...haiz.......but one thing for sure is tat my holidays are full with homework n tuition here n there....that's mean i dun hav holiday lo......HOLIDAYS juz for me to sleep a little bit late....hehe.....ok la....wanna go to sleep la.....juz like pig la......always wanna to sleep oli.....wakakaka.....

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Oo.....i am very excited about 2moro...de walk-a-hunt..!!! wonder my team can win or not??? Hope can win le.....i need money very much.....hehe!!! But after 2moro de walk-a-hunt.....we all still have to becum de helpers of the carnival...organise by sin chew jit poh....quite lazy de la.....

2day....once again...i almost late for school.....cuz yesterday....3.30 sumthing oli sleep...cuz watching tv and wan 2 finish all my homework ma....at least now....i hav finish 30% of my homework la....then when reach school ....realised tat the floor is all wet...how am i gonna to sit on it....oMg...2day got "majlis pelancaran bulan kemerdekaan"....tat's mean i am gonna to sit for a longer time....sure my skirt will be wet lo.....haiz......

actually feel a little boring.....2day in class....cuz all my frenz din make any noise.....they all juz seem so quiet la......kinda of weird la.....i so "geram" la.....cuz cannot go lost world...i wanna go but can't la...firstly i thought i wan 2 join ah wai n de gang ge....but now can't follow as this sunday got many tuition la....i thought can go relax myself ge....but never mind la...we'll go after the final exam....hehe..

i think there is oso nothing special happen in my life 2day le.....cuz i juz concentrate on my homework...n i din care abt anything tat happen around me.....after school got.....meeting...ai nee as usual will giv us some briefing on tat carnival.... those who are taking part in the walk-a-hunt oso hav to be de helper for de carnival....feeling quite lazy de.....but never mind la....i now will juz follow orders....then...de MKP hav to stay back for meeting....darren oso gt cum but juz a little bit late...then we started our meeting..lo..he ask us whether we got any complain abt de backwood cooking or not....i juz dun hav any comments.....at 1.40pm ...de meeting was dismissed....n i quickly rushed back home after taking my t-shirt for the walk-a-hunt....when i am on my way back.....darren passed by n ask me to find him someday...to talk abt my case....my case??? isn't about my resignation???? i feel very worry la......ok la...dun wan to talk so much le.....bye bye my blog.....!!! 2 more days to go....yuges n yugathes de bufday la.....wishing them to having a great holidays n oso bufday la....hehe!!!!

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Wow!!! Today i feel so free la.....mayb because i aredi din have de burden...on my shoulder gua....i must promise to myself tat starting from now on.....i should study hard!!!! But today oso feel a little bit sad.....

Today morning....i feel a little sad...cuz mayb about de resignation as i quite scared tat ai nee won't approve my resign....but then after we all went back to class.....i was being scared by sam sam n wilson...as they both quarrel early in de morning.....sam sam was very "geram".....after both of them quarrel.......sam sam n i went to toilet...i ask her y she feel so angry de.....But after we went back.....i went back to my place n start to do my homework.... Later.....i heard shok yien mumbling.....feeling so weird...i look at her lo....OO....i noe y...she is so angry le...cuz ai nee "kuatkan" de fan....shok yien say tat she is very cold...so she went to slow down de fan....Today is really a sad day la.....All my classmates seem to be feeling very down...........they all look sad....chun hung feel say after quarreling...shok yien who is very angry cum over n sit wif us....i ask her y she din sit wif ai nee? but she din answer me....! wondering wat happen to my frenz...? Why they feel so sad de?? i start feeling sad for ai nee.....why shok yien din "peduli" her ke?? I oso forget liao wat happen after tat....as i remember...my est teacher ask us..whether peers or frenz are important to us or not?? i answered tat i won't need frenz so much which i mean....i won't die....although i dun hav frenz..but conclusion is i still need frenz la..i juz wondering when can i find my true frenz....close one ge la....hihi...wat am i talking about.....? seem juz like talking rubbish la....wakaka...then after finish school...we all scout hav to stay back...marching ma....but then oli i realised...tat today marching practise cancel liao....but still got meeting cuz ai nee wan 2 giv some briefing...on tis saturday ge.... sin chew carnival n de walk-a-hunt....but during tat meeting...i see shok yien feel very frusfrated.....she actually dun like to wear the scarf during the walk-a-hunt.....juz wanna say.....dun treat ur close fren like tis la....haiz.....ntg to say le!!!

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Today should be a happy day for me......but all this was being ruined when the co-curiculum started at 1.55pm.......Before i talk on the topic that really made me wanna to shout"FUCK".....i'll start my blog wif something happy.......Today morning after the assembly.....puan yasmin called all the girls to stay back....that time....i was blur blur de.....i dun noe wanna to stay back oso.....hihi...puan yasmin talk about the girls issues.....which is not suitable to tell....to u all....hihi!!! during the assembly.....tat bat po, ah ling ask me who is that "she" in my blog.....of course...as i aredi use "she" as the symbol....i surely won't tell de la.....so i ask her to guess lo....I wonder why everyone that read my blog oso think that "she" is tat swet yee ke??? i honestly tell u la...ah ling that person is.....actually......not swet yee but another person in my school....if u can guess correctly....i will giv u a treat....wakakaka!!! I oso wonder wat had happened to tat hui xin.....injuries here n there....so cham la....must be very painful...err!!! Then.....we hav class as usual la....during de maths period....we go for eyes testing......n the most terrible moment came.......as soon as the bell rang.....!!!!!!we all gathered at the lobby....."masuk baris" lo.....she ask man heng n how lai......to check the full-u.......Did she ever remember tat i am oso de pengawai disiplin...??? But everytimes.....she oli will call man heng....to check de full-u....sometimes me myself oso dun noe whether i am de AJK or not???!!! After that......how lai ask chun hung n wai chun.....go out to be "hukum". chun hung ask wat's wrong wif him...?? before that how lai oso ask me to cum out.....then how lai said tat we both din wear de "pangkat" badge...we both not satisfied....cuz ai nee n man heng oso din wear....so if want to punish both of us....u must oso punish ai nee n man heng too.....i was very angry tat time....i am not satisfied wif everything.....then how lai ask me to cool down....but i can't....!! later how lai came n said tat we wait until friday first....wait for darren to punish us....! what the fuck!!! i really wan to explode de la.....then we started to march lo.. me feeling very not "shuang"....so....pretend to be cool.....but unluckily.....swet yee made me wan to laugh as i see sth weird from her....later i dun noe y...? man heng ask all of us to go to the "tapak bola keranjang" to march.......then march la....me aredi cool down ge la....but when i see her....i will feel tension......after marching for sum time.....we then gathered at the lobby....cuz ai nee wan to announce sth lo...she juz say tat 2molo....after school...gt marching practise n friday got mkp meeting wo....so hateful la...meeting this...meeting tat........!!! that moment.....i dun noe wat happen 2 myself but i juz wanna to hand out that resignation letter as soon as possible...so after we all dismiss......i giv her tat letter......but i noe....trouble will soon coming to me.....watever la....cuz i really dun wan to be any AJK or watever APL la....no meaning....."tak ada maknanya"......ok....i think i hav really cool down ke la.....n i think i won't regret on wat i did tis afternoon.....when i went home..........after having my bath....."He" sms me again but now i din feel scared about "him" la...cuz we are juz frenz........when i think about the first time "he" sms me....i feel so scary la....but lately i feel better now.........but somehow....i really worried that i hav to wait for few months oli i can resign.....i wan 2 stop immediately ......STOP EVERYTHING!!!!ok la.....i should go for a shower to calm myself......wakakaka

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Oo......today i feel quite peace la......since nothing much happened in my life today......but today at school feel quite boring de cuz my chemistry teacher din cum school 2day...so i can't attend my favourite class....during the free time.....we discuss about our trip to penang.....seem no ppl wanna follow the trip so we chance our mind......we will go to genting instead of penang....i juz wanna go for a trip to giv myself some times to relax my mind.....so tension wif my studies......i think there is nothing for me to write about the school period......
haizzzzzzzz.............today after school got marching practise........so lazy la...!!! i quite enjoy the practise de but then i am being criticized by ai nee lo.....she say tat i seem very weird while i am marching.........my heart feel sad la...but mayb really i really march weirdly lo......as i long time oso din practise liao...wat to do..as now there is no a gud leader la..in the troop...so how the member can be gud....then at 2.35pm...i went home lo...after having my lunch go watch tv....until i feel very sleepy..then at night....my dad bring us to have dinner at a food centre....then went home watch de "ghost whisper 2". Tat's all i think......n i wanna stop here la....cuz wanna finish my bm essay....2morrow hav to pass up lo....( really lazy la me...do work in at the eleventh hours....)..hihihi...."PEACE"......tat picture of mickey n frenz is so nice la....

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Oo.....i am so frusfrated now......I am thinking whether i should really giv her that letter.... yesterday before....i sleep.....i hav aredi made up my mind tat is i would like to resign from the post that i am having in the scout......i hav think for a very long time n finally i came up with de letter.......but i am scared of many things....example.....i scared that de pemimpin won't let me go for exam......n oso gathering.....if like tis for wat i attend the scout....right??? Why i can't juz do it according to my feelings....but i really scared i will regret.....la...and i oso dun noe....wat is the most suitable time for me to resign......n if i resign....dun i hav to wait for 3 months notice....i hope there is no necessity la.....lazy la.....wanna to be free as soon as possible....


today i really feel no mood after recess.....because i din see "her" around.....where hav "she" been......wanna see "her" oso cannot la.....haiz....... furthermore.....i am very frusfrated about de color of our class t-shirt.....why ppl like to choose tis n tat de??? We hav discuss for quite a long time n finally today....we hav the conclusion....the color that we choose are black n apple green...ok la...i quite like tat color de....!!! Really thanks to my son....man heng la....he see me so "fan" n he ask me wat's wrong with me.....n i tell him that i am quite "fan" wif the color of de t-shirt.....n finally he help me to ask de class to decide de color.........

once again i miss my add maths tuition.....but never mind....i will go on friday...n i think i will go to the sunday class for my account......cuz saturday...surely not free de .....cuz got walk-a-hunt.......why my time so packed de......?? wat a tiring life.....i hav!!!! Tis cuming holiday.....i wanna go sumwhere else.........to relax......hope can go.....without any "halangan" le..........
ok la...........i oso dun noe wat to say le.............but conclusion of today is ............i am very "bimbang abt her" la.........hihihihihi...dun noe wat i write la..........???!!!!

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You've got an awful thinking on your mind right now -- but so does everyone else! You may need to step back and let people go through their own business; save your thoughts and opinions for a later time.

Wow....so accurate la....tis horoscope reading....!!! i really got an awful thinking on my mind right now.......but i dun noe whether others are oso same like me or not.. As i am quite a stubborn person.....i dun noe how to step back...really can help with my bad characteristic.... today have been a sad day for me......

Today......i sleep until 10.30am oli wake up....so tired la.....after tat...have "pan mee" as my breakfast....so yummy la... then i juz walking around de house lo...doing nothing la...see having a such boring day....then at 1.30pm.....my mum cum home n fetch me n my brother to my grandma's house....having lunch lo...but i din eat a lot cuz no appetite....then go tuition lo......today got exam la.....but i cannot finish all de questions....so sad la....

after tuition....i went home lo.....i go to my mum's room....i sleep on the bed.....i start to think about many things.....such as the scout n others school de things...n something that i hope to do....but my mum din support me oso....i am so heart broken .......sob.... i started ...................................................to.........................tears started to roll to my cheek........yes i am crying..........i dun noe why suddenly i will cry de....then ran back to my room to cry " sepuas-puasnya".......after crying for almost an hour.....my emotion....become stable....back.....but still feel really sad........why my mum like to babble.....then.....later my mum n my brothers went to my grandma's house to have dinner...but i din go.....cuz no mood la...........actually tis is not de first time ......i cried for no reason.........i always like tis de.....me really sot sot de....hahaha

then on9 lo..........go friendster...msn...n oso find the info about great wall of china....n oso de leaning tower of pisa......but suddenly no internet de line......haiz................so frustrated la.......wan go on9 oso cannot de......y like tis de my life so unlucky......every times oso like tis de...i wan on9 oso cannot........ok lo...then i wait........for so long....juz like ages....at last can on9 back lo....but all my friends oso left aredi...........then off9 lo.....cuz very late aredi.....suddenly......i think about the "sin chew" carnival........i wonder wat will happen in tat carnival.......cuz i am not helping in de carnival..................i am going to enter the "walk a hunt" competition...........i am so tired right now...............ok la......i think it's all for now...................i wan turn off de computer aredi la......i hope that i will have a happy day 2molo le............no mood liao....le

u all sure very boring....rite.....reading my blog......cuz everyday de content oso almost de same de.............me oso dun wan de....but wat can i do.....??? i am tat type of person ma...........BORING gurl.............haiz.............

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Almost forgot liao today is the summer concert of 8tv.......at last it was held in ipoh....but i din go cuz i dun like lo....house so comfortable....why wan go there wo???? today hav been a very boring day for me...i considered la....

today i got school replacement...but many of my classmates oso din cum.....so bored la...if i noe so many ppl oso din cum....i oso dun wan attend skul 2day la....better sleep at my house......yesterday almost 3 oli sleep la...very "fan" la tis few days.....dun noe why.....but of course..i hav 2 attend skul cuz my mum won't let me "ponteng" de...very "cham" la......go to skul 2day....we r being forced to draw poster of the independence's day celebration.......me myself noe la....that i am bad in drawing..if u ask me to draw...it's juz like calling me to die la.......but luckily....lik wak help me to draw most of the drawing...hehe...i juz do the coloring part oli...after that.....i n my 2 little sister go to geography room to find puan leong lo.....lepak at there oli la....luckily i got the 2 little sis who accompany me....if not i sure will die of being so boring....at skul le....i giv a ride to kar mun n we went to oi kei's house....we chit chat la....they two very funny la....no wonder so many ppl like them la....hehe!!!!!

then i go home at about 1.20pm cuz got tuition ma....long time din go for zaitun de tuition.....cuz of de scout activities la....i hope that those scout de activities won't make me miss my tuition again la...........but i think i sure will miss my tuition as our troop is going to held a modern cooking competition in september 15....n there is oso a.......wat carnival....forget liao wat name le.. but i got take part in the "walk a hunt"...hope can win le....but still one week to go la...but i aredi "tak sabar" liao.....after tuition.......go n watch movie....until i feel so sleepy n i go to sleep liao lo....

very "geram" la.....ppl release my aeroplane....le that sam sam la.....promise wan 2 go to lik wak's house but at last.....say dun wan go liao le ..........so hateful la...tis sam sam.....bad gurl...!!!!
juz on time.....luckily i din sleep until i miss the summer concert....although i din like tis years de summer concert....i still wan 2 watch if not my friends n i din got topic to talk about lo........but actually i really din watch de cuz buzy chatting with my friends on msn lo.....hehe....chat with huey min....yuges...yugathes...n hui qing too.....hav a lot of fun la...chatting v them....while chatting v them....i hav to look for sum information......to do the english ULBS.....so "cham"...ar!!!!!! until now still cannot find de suitable information la.....haizzzzzzzzz........

i really wan to do how is my personalities.......towards my friends.....! tis few days....i am thinking about these things lo.....really make me feel very "fan" la.....Am i juz like a "wood"....do my friends feel boring hanging out v me........WHY i so CARE how ppl think about me??? but i reallly CARE la...how ppl xpecially my friends think about me......!!!! i always scared that i ll lost face in front of my frenz de......i cannot face.....failure de la..........

"In order to succeed, your desire for succeed should be greater than your fear of failure"......tis word by billy ....... is really meaningful 4 me...it is juz like a "pendorong" for me to put aside de fear of failure...in order for me to succeed in my life............

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hA!Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz................wat la tat yoke ling so 8 de.... she go n tell hui xin wat i write until tat hui xin cum n scold me (no la where gt scold juz say say oli la)...never mind la.....but i wan to thank yoke ling jie jie cuz go n promote my blog....gud lo...so that ppl can know wat mei yee think about......i really have no idea of wat i wan to write 2day....cuz 2day ....many things happen around me.....but sum...i really can't write it out.....

today is juz an unluckily day for me......Why i say so.....cuz 2day wake up late jo.....7.10 oli wake up.....then quickly prepare myself n rushed to skul lo....luckily i din "lewat" to skul la...if not i am really in trouble lo..!!! Then i settle down lo.....juz b4 de assembly started.....my dear...hu do u think cum over to my friends n i..??? sure lo....is ai nee la....if not hu else....!!! acTually nothing special....she juz ask us to stay back after skul.....then we started our boring de assembly....while those form 3 students...will be having their trial....last day lo...i think those form 3 de students must be very happy lo.....cuz when i was in form 3 that time....me so overjoyed after my trial finish.....but then of course feel sad la cuz de result no gud...but as i remember......i get 6As n a C in my trial la.....C for my geography lo....

quite boring cuz after physics...n bm...we all go to the computer lab...really bad luck la....the computer that i hav chosen....cannot access to the internet de....so i can juz do my account de homework lo.....i hav think for a long time.....cuz i do not noe how to do the question 4 n 5.....so after i hav done my duty in de library....i go downstairs n ask mun s'ng n mun jee....but both of them oso forget liao how to do....then i ask hui xin lo....she oso de same.....forget liao how 2 do...how can like tis de...???? But anyway thanks for teaching although u all can't help....then dunno why....i can solve de question liao....hihi...so weird la!!!! Oooo.......excited moment is cuming when the bell rang at 12.15pm.....

we all gathered at the lobby n then we go out to the assembly ground....n started marching....."kiri....kiri....kiri....kanan.....kiri....." tat's all we r doing.....quite bored...but i still enjoy it cuz long time din march lo.....miss my old times again la.....so "memalukan" when i see those form 1 de st.john oso can march better than us.....so shame la....then at 1.10 sumthing......i went home cuz have to rush to tuition....so exhausted la.....i hate Friday.....so many tuition packed together....2.oopm until 6.00pm.....different places pulak tu........then go home home n on9 lo until 8.00 sumthing....sam sam cum n find me to go cc.....until i forget to wash de dishes....then when i reached home .....my mum started to scold me.....say that i am not responsible...n like to go out.....hanging around with my friends.....i feel that wat my mum scold me is really correct wo.....
tis few days i oso .....cum out...lepak de... din do homeworks n oso housechores....!!!

wat had happened to me??? last time....i'm not like tis de wo.....if i go out oso....i sure will finish all my housechores first.....n now i am so lazy la....homeworks din finish then copy ppl de xpecially my "lion" de homeworks lo...but i feel tat i am really not responsible...n oso dun not keep my promise...as i hav promise to myself tat i will finish my works without copying...but i can't do it........i really wonder where is that mei yee who r very hardworking n responsible had gone.......i hav to search back that mei yee......i cannot be like tis de wo..........
MEI YEE...........where have u gone????? cum back plz...........

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Today in skul....it's juz very boring.......Why i will boring? mayb cuz 2day many of my friends oso...absense....Wonder wat r they doing when i was studying? I feel that life is really meaningless.....for wat....we r studying so hard....with so much burden........i feel so suffer......i juz thought of giving up everything in my life.........i was very tired everyday.....this few days, i dun noe wat had happened to myself.....i like to sleep during class......mayb cuz i sleep very late le..recently...cuz i think about many nonsense de things.....Now....i attend my account tuition.....i oso will feel sleepy de...WHY? WAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME? I HAVE TO STOP TIS NONSENSE!!!!!At night.....i on9 to find sum sources to make my power point presentation de things.....As usual la....i will open my friendster n oso my msn....cuz wanna chat v friends ma......then i saw hui xin on9 wo.....so i chat with her lo.......in the same time i oso chat with emily n oso yuges.....hui xin n i talk about nonsense la....then i ask her lo...why she is so fierce de wo...then she tell me....that's the real hui xin...she say that she dun like to pretend to be cute or watever la....then i am so curious to noe how ppl think about my personalities.....so i ask her lo wat she thinks about my personalities.....her ans really made me feel so surprise.....she say tat i am a friendly person.....wakakaka!!!! me......FRIENDLY!!!!!......tat must be a joke....but as she says that i am friendly...then mayb la..To me......my personalities are.......i am not confident in watever i did.....i am scared that i will lost face la.........i din dare to know new friends....cuz i dun noe how to communicate with ppl........n i scared they dun wan 2 be my friends....then i will feel so "fish" la....Am i fierce??? Am i talkative?? i am lazy lo......i am tat type of ppl who juz can guide ppl but if me myself do tat stuff....surely fail de........who can tell me wat my real personalities are????????? Cuz myself.....cannot see the real personalities of me myself.....but sometimes i oso cannot differentiate which is the true meiyee....???

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Wow!!! Today....is a quite happy day for me cuz nothing to say about the scouting things!!! Today sum of my friends and i participate in the patriotic singing competition......and we hav..............WON in that competition without any competitors...cuz the other class hav giv up...sure la...ur class so "keng"......so they scared aredi....but we hav to perform again on the 30th August......so lazy la ....win aredi still got to perform!!!!haizzzzzzzz.....! Today at tuition.....feel so sleepy....din listen to my ah sir oso.....luckily after i washed my face i din feel so sleepy la.....still can listen a little bit....but i am very blur la about tis topic "HEAT"......wanna get mad ge le!!!! aT night......sam sam, wilson, ivis, carrot, stephanie and me.....almost forget my son, chun chun went to MM....we chat-chat lo.....after that we all go to CC.....me help them lo.....to make accounts.....and blog oso......wonder when i can see their blogs?????? But something very weird la.....cuz i aredi help sam sam to make a friendster account.....and ivis oso add her de le ma....but juz now i check her account....the friendster state that her account din not exist wo???? So weird la!!!!! ok la......actually nothing special to say la......wanna stop la......cuz i wanna finish up my tuition de homework.........gud night....!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am sorry to my blog....cuz aredi 2days din post any blog.....cuz i am really buzy... Yesterday is my friend de bufday...my friends and i go celebrate with him...hav a lotz of fun...maybe because yesterday....watch tv until 1am...i feel so sleepy 2day.....i sleep during my maths period...cuz we all at the "bilik media"....very comfortable...got air-con and that room is very dark de..that's why i feel so sleepy...the teacher then cum n wake me up...but i still continue my sleep...after that period, we go back to our class until 2.30pm...skul finish...but still cannot go home la...Poor...mei yee...hav to march...after that got "MKP" meeting.....at about 3.30pm...i oli reach back to my house...after having my lunch...i rest for a while..then went to my mum's room to take a nap..but actually not a nap...i sleep until i miss my history tuition again....i always miss my tuition de lo.....i wish i got go tuition 2day la....i juz wake up....when wai sam sms me to call me to go to her house to check his computer....i am so sorry la cuz cannot help her to fix her computer cuz i juz know use the software but i din know how to fix a computer la.....then i do my homework after i take my bath and hav my dinner....i juz now oli finish doing my chemistry notes.....now it's aredi 11.00pm....i hav discovered that my lifestyle is very boring....xpecially 2day.....like this i hav wasted my 23hours doing nothing......WHY my LIFE so BORED de??????? At last there is one day.....that i didn't mention any scouting activities in my blog.....! That picture very nice le! he is the founder of scout...he is LOrd Baden poWell.....

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Today have been a busy day to me.......In the morning as early as 6.00am...i woke up and prepare myself cuz today is the merdeka run......What a bullshit my friends are....as we have discussed to go to have breakfast at ghany at 6.45am...but when i reach there....nobody is at there which i mean my friends la...then i have to go home lo....after that ..wilson called me...and i went to his house n find him to gather at the "dataran kampar"...when we reach there....i saw ivis and pik qi having their breakfast....i hate ppl who always broke their promise n din not keep on time......At about 8.15am, we started our run.....me as usually dun prefer running...thus i juz walk lo..n when my friends ask me to run...then oli i will run de lo.... i am so satisfied with myself about the running things....cuz i finally got a certificate that about sport de.....so happy....But i am really in a hurry.....as i got "masakan rimba" competition at the complex n we all have to gather at there at 10.00am....but when wilson and me reach there.....many ppl oso not yet come.....so angry la...cuz not on time again.....thus de competition have delay for a hour that's means it started at 11.00am....that time de weather really hot la...i sweat a lot la.....finally the winner of the day...is announced....and emily's patrol has won de champion....but i see ai nee ad shok yien were very mad about the results....they find it so unfair.....but to me it's nothing as we have try ur best aredi le ma.....we juz go there to get more experience and the winning things is juz a reward.....but never mind la....ur troop win wo....should be happy la right....dun noe la wat they think about...!!!????
Then at night....at 6.30pm....my mum, stephanie, sam sam, wilson and me went to KTAR as we all want to watch the KTAR orientation night.....during the programme.....i enjoy the break dance a lot.....very cool la....then the finalist oso very "leng zai" and "leng lui" de....i found out that M2 is very handsome n cute la......hihi.......AT last M4 and F4 won the title of mr and ms tarcian.....they oso won the best couple award....enjoy the performance but seem like tis year de orientation night isn't that's fun....i really miss those time de orientation night as the mc are really funny de...and their eng are much more better....maybe sum days in de future.....i oso got chance to take part in the orientation la....mayb as a mc oso gud la.......After that.......my mum drive us home....we all cycle to "Maha Maju"....to yum cha la....then we talk about ai nee....she seem very very bad la......she "telah menyalahgunakan kuasanya"...i found out that many of her friends oso dun like her de.....so sad la...wat to do....Nothing la....right.....i think it's all for 2day blog.....i wanna get enough sleep as tomorrow...we go to the temple to get rewards....so excited la...cuz got money ma.....wakakaka...................

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I am so tired right now but i still cannot sleep as i am waiting for ai nee to pass me the coconut shells to be cleaned.......I suppose to sleep now since tomorrow i got take part in the merdeka run.....i should have enough sleep......Juz now i and the other scouts who are taking part in the "masakan rimba" contest were gathered at mr leong's house.....There, i learned how to make spoon and fork out of "buluh"....it's s so interesting la.....i am so enjoy making those utensils.....It have been ages....i have not learned something new since hing wai left us.....Today after school.....i saw those form 1 de st.john are trained by their senior.......i remember that time when i first join the scout.....with pei shin and mabel.....but finally both of them left scout already and joining the gurl guide......juz left me behind....I really really miss that time.....i juz wanna go back when i was in form 1....when i was juz a little gurl (can be considered la).....wat oso dunnoe de little girl.....after tonight.....i have made up my mind......i would like to resign from my post.......and i think i will hand the letter to wilson after the competition and after i have discussed with puan lee...I really dun wan to get involve in SCOUT anymore....When i refresh back my memories....juz now me, wilson and emily go to buy something....when we go to mr leong's house that time.....i got talk about my wish to resign..... then i remembered wilson got say we juz do our part and we juz enjoy the moment with our friends....tis is wat i get from wat he say.......yup... i think most of you are thinking juz like him....appreciate the friendship....but if wilson got read tis....i wan to tell him that....."I din find any friends in scout.....i noe u and emily are very close friend.....but until tis moment i can't even find a trusted friend in my life.....so i think i dun need to appreciate everyone of you..especially scout...." For me.....in scout oli will make me feel angry with my friends....thus i dun wan to talk about SCOUT with my friends" I hope wilson dun always talk de SCOUT things in front of me.....i will feel very tension oli.......although in the past i really enjoy it....OK la....i actually dun like talking about SCOUT stuff but recently many things about scout is happening around me....I feel so tired......OMG.....it's almost 12.58am lo......i will continue my blog tomorrow...i hope tomorrow i can write something happy de la....coz every day de blog oso so sad de.....GAMBATEH KENIX!!! hope my team can win la in de competition 2moro...AR..................rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..........2moro have to wake up early cuz promise liao wan 2 go eat breakfast de.........ok la i really wan to stop lo...i wan to have a bath then i wan to sleep....i sleep not because i wan to hide myself...i sleep juz to prepare myself so that i can walk further.....!!!!

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Oo.....dun be surprise of wat i write!!! I am so angry right now that i dun have other words to describe my feelings right now.......FUCK! Why i am so angry le??? Actually me today is in a very gud mood cuz today i have done my oral test for bahasa melayu and i get full marks of it. Moreover today....there are not so much homework so i think i can relax a bit after my account tuition....but suddenly i saw a message in my phone...OMG! the msg is from ai nee! so i think that's not a gud news....She called for an urgent meeting....Ok lo...i go for the meeting. After the meeting....my anger can't be control anymore.....i juz wanna to release all my anger....but i keep myself under control....So now i use blogging as the way to express all my feeling about tat particular "meeting". I am being forced to take part in the "masakan rimba" contest.......Why she wan us to take part? why she dun ask de member to take part...???? why? why? why? see i gonna crazy!!!! ok....i think i dun wan take part de la.....but when i went home......i saw her msg again...she ask me to join her group.....i noe that she as the KK oso "very tired" but me juz a "fei cai"....juz left me behind la...less me one person won't affect anything de la........I am very very very TIRED LA.........if she still force me to do things that i dun like......i think i have to use my last choice......which is sacrifice the post of the APL since i oso dun like to become a APL de la....I DUN WAN to be part of de MKP.......i wan to resign.......tomorrow i'll ask puan lee about the co-curriculum marks.....if it won't affect much of my marks....BUT if she still force me until i can't even breathe.....i will not juz resign of the post.....i will resign from the SCOUT oso.......For wat doing sumthing that u dun like to do.....there is no point doing sumthing that is not making u happy......u'll feel very suffering......that wat i feel now......Actually the main reason that i dun wan to take part is that i will surely feel very tired after the running....U think i still gt so much energy to cycle from TBB to the Kompleks Sukan.....and the other reasons is i dun wan to miss my tuition anymore.....i dun care la if ai nee and the others are so willing to go as they r so bright students.....me not same....i can't miss for tuition anymore.....i wan to study well.....i dun wan to disappointed my parents who are so tired working to earn money for me to study not for me to join a competition to buy chicks and fish......so like cooking....go home and help ur mother to cook la.....take part in such a competition for wat!!!!! Despress!!!!! i think i should go to see the caunselor so that she can help me.... I dun wat to talk about it anymore......i dun wanna to take part.....KILL me la.......than forcing me doing the things i dun prefer......i am totally disappointed now!!!! NO MORE SCOUT and CO-CURRICULUM

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Oo.....i am going to be crazy coz i hav waited for half a day....until i can post tis blog.....this is bcoz the line of the internet isn't that gud tis few days...........Actually........since we have chosen the next year commitee for the scout.....i isn't that happy coz i din get a gud post.......but never mind la.......at least a discipline master (pengawai disiplin)..is consider ok la... but tis few days...i am wondering whether i am one of the commitee or not...? Am i de pengawai disiplin? Somehow i think i'm not the discipline master as everything about discipline..is juz none of my business.....i'm totally disappointed with the scout....I dun like to march.............i dun wan join the meeting.................i dun wan to involved in the SCOUT anymore.....there are no sweet memory for me anymore in SCOUT since hing wai left.........I am very tired la......i wan to stop....i wanna to stop every single activities that all about scout....But i din dare......coz i scared that tis will affect my Co-curriculum.... Why can't they giv me some times for me to relax and i juz wanna to concentrate in my studies? Oooooo............wat should i do? Should i stop? This is all the questions that will always come to my mind.......Oo....my jesus.........can u plz give me sum guidance on wat should i do? Moreover, nowadays.....scout is juz like a burden to me.....not like in the past....that time i really enjoy doing the scout activities although we march under the hot sun....we never complain....I really hope that i can go back when i was in form 1....when i was only a member "zai".....Miss tat time a lot...........!!!! Now i feel very tension when wilson ask me whether i wanna go for the JD exam.......i really wanna to go but for wat i go now??? i dun think that i still got time for me to take the king scout's exam......Ooo......i dun wanna to think about scout now....!!!! Coz it'll make me get headache!!!! my head juz like wan to explode lo......so painful....Ok la, i think that's all for today la......may GOD bless me!!!!! Gud Luck to myself.............la

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My mood is......DOWN!!!

OMG.....! What I have been doing in this half of the year? I really have no idea about those activities that I have done as if I have lost all my memories....
I know that I cannot keep on my attitudes like that cause I am already in form 4.....next year I will be having my SPM
BUT what can I do??? Who can come and help me....guide me to the correct path....huh!!!
Why all my friends seem to be so free as they even got time to go here and there....but for me....it is better for me hanging at home.....and sitting in front of the computer just like now......
Now already left one day and August is coming....but I seem that I don't know what I have been studying all the times.....
Today.....when I get back my Bio's exam paper......once again.....disappointed......cause I FAIL my Bio
That moment only I realised that I don't know what have been taught by teacher during my Biology period.....
Furthermore....I feel that I am very LAZY this year......cause I always run away from my tuition class....and even though I attend for tuition...I surely will sleep during lecture....
Why I always feel so tired de.....? Sometimes....I even think.....should I sacrifice my scout and others co-curiculum stuff and pay fully attention to my studies.....?
I really don't know......
Okay la....as now is already very late....I think I should go to bed lolz......
meiyee.................gambateh!!!!!!!!!!!

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My mood today can be considered quite good de....I am very happy when "she" come over and talk with me......and my friends, too....although "she" is making fun of me.....but i am willing to be treated like that....coz if i can make them laugh....never mind de lo....I always being de victim for my friends to make fun with......coz they always say that i have married with LTH de la....n wat we'll do in the middle of the night....that's all rubbish! All nonsense.....That's all for the part during my assembly....After that....we went back to our class....n started my new n challenging day......after having my chemistry period......i felt so bored....but anyway i keep on doing all my homework.....i am very "geram" or hateful when my history's teacher absence for class again........wat tat idiot teacher wanna to do... she always absence but if she presence also no use de le.....coz she never taught us.....since the first day.....she came into our class...WHY is the school giving us such a teacher?Omg...! I am really not sure what will happen to me....when the examination came....? How am i going to answer those questions....? Whatever.....la....but the things that really make me angry is that my additional maths de teacher didn't let us go home.....as he has promised that he'll let us go home at 1.50....he broke his promise....and i am really mad at that time coz i am very hungry....and no mood doing the add maths n maths de questions.....crazy la me!!!!! Ok.....i think i'll stop here....cuz i wanna to go for tuition lo......

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