Posted by imkenix
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2:00 PM
i hav been attending the pesta sukan.......that held at ipoh...........i am participate in the paintball......really hav a lot of fun.......but it is very painful.....when kena shoot.....i kena shoot at the arm....n my back............waiting for the bus is really not an interesting things.......bored.....bored n bored....in conclusion............this pesta is really bored......as we hav been waiting all the days......something bad happen during the open ceremony of this pesta.........
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Posted by imkenix
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3:56 PM
2day is my first time....attending an event as a gbbm member......go to bangunan perak darul ridzuan.......listen 2 ceramah aids................so boring la.......morning until evening........tired la.....then at nite......i go to chun chun bufday party.....hav a lotz of fun.....went home quite late.....wanna hav a gud sleep first.....
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Posted by imkenix
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12:18 PM
Posted by
imkenix
on
3:58 PM
in
emo_meiyee
i really dun understand why nowadays.....scout seem very hateful to me.........i dun understand.....why those AJK can ask ppl cum for meeting as they like....din they understand ppl life not juz for SCOUT, SCOUT...n SCOUT de....ppl got other things to do de ma..............haiz.................now....even go to gathering oso hav to make "perjanjian".....need to sign the surat...........macamlah saya ni........pesalah.....yang akan melanggar undang-undang yang ditetapkan......................hihihi...........why suddenly write liao malay ge???? watever la......now very geram le........meeting....meeting.....meeting ur head meh.........................s2pid --rr-- ...............ok la............wan go to bed lo....cuz 2 moro oso gt MEETING.............................
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Posted by
imkenix
on
3:31 PM
in
confusing life
lately i really "fan" la........
i dun noe wat i wan to do............holidays start liao but i feel that i have wasted my holidays liao....i wan revise but i din do tat......then i will be going for the scout campfire.....for three days....no preparations are made...............very disappointed of myselfnowadays i oli know how to mapling...........but sumtimes i play games oso feel very "sian" la....really no use liao me........now cough like hell n my voice oso change liao.........like ghost la......my voicei think after the campfire.......i can go for ujian komputer.........n start my form 5 studies.......i hope i can do that la...............i really very grateful to my seniors........those form 5 de who giv or lend me their notes....reference books n oso exercise books........thanks to u all...............ok la......2moro need to go to pasar with my team member......wan go beli "sayur" hahahanow wan watch tv first......"the gentle crackdown" then later watch dvd
holidays = wasting
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Posted by imkenix
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3:34 PM
huh!!! i oso hav no idea on how to write my blog la.....thanks hui xin for ur comment.....if gt time send more comments to me la...
i really feel jealous cuz u gt a group of gud frens.....i hope i'll find mine one day....!!!!
lately i feel that i seem losing my confidence in doing watever things la........this few days...i often go to chang's house to discuss about the cooking competition....i see those scouts are really gud......i feel that me myself is really no use la......i always scared that because of me......they'll lose...i feel juz no confident in participating that cooking competition la......cuz actually i'm not gud in cooking....huh!!! although i hav been a scout for 4 years...but lately i hate scout n oso dun hav any confident in doing all those scout skills.....today i go to how lai house for a simple meeting......after meeting....our group discuss about the decorations....i really don't hav any idea la..........then chang say why dun we made mini gadjets....and she say that our group got me...n say that won't be a problem as i am quite skillful......hahaha.....!!!! yes...i am skillful but oli in the knots.....i am not gud in making small n tiny ge things ge....if in the past i think i won't say like tat but i think this is a gud challenge.....but why ge??? :) i oso dunno.......now i oli hope that i won't make my group lose in that competition this coming friday la........haiz.......!!!! juz now someone sms me n ask me whether i wan to go to a place.........i really hope that i can go........but i really scared that i will feel bored...n s2pid cuz no one will know who am i and i scared that i am shy to make new frens at that function.....haiz......i really dunno wat should i do....??? <(:)>
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Posted by imkenix
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2:34 PM
haiz...............2day i thought i can go listen to law.....cuz i am going to take my motor license.....tak sangka.....when i am in the middle of the journey....suddenly that uncle......receive a call....n he speak in malay......then.....he stop at the toll n tell me n taufik that there is no space liao.....and he ask us whether we wan go home now or at 12pm....then we both say that we wan go home now lo..then he sent us to the nearest bus stand....we waited for so long....until the bus came.........luckily taufik is there...so i can ask his father to bring me back to that shop again.....so angry la me...cuz i thought i wan finish it as fast as possible la...
this few days.....i really get addicted to maple......wah this game is really fun n made me addicted...i play until i oso can't stop.....my mum often scold me for being such playful la........i really hate sum ppl....i wan kill ppl la....i wan kill everyone that "menyinggung" my feelings
KILLLL......................
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Posted by
imkenix
on
3:30 PM
in
confusing life
actually who am i???i m a gurl with a lotz of problems....problematics gurl i think............i am a gurl who mayb seem to be happy.....but the fact is i m not as happy as ppl think........i am a gurl with a lotz of stress....tension all the times........but still.......i won't let ppl to know how stress am i...!!!i m a gurl who like to keep all my secret in deep of my heart.....thus ppl always think tat i m a mysterious gurl......(mayb)i am gurl who like to made a lotz of noise in class....although sumtimes....i seem to be quiet..........as u noe la...my add maths teacher always scold mefor being noisy wo......but i din feel that i m as noisy as my other frenz....but he din scold them oso......oli scold me!!! ???i am a gurl who seem to be very friendly.........but actually i m friendly la....if i hav know the person very well...if not i'll be a gurl who is quite shy.......i dun like to talk to ppl that i m not close v........i m a gurl who dun like to make the first move in watever way......i surely won't make my first move if i wan to made new frenz.......shy i think....i am oso a gurl who hate ppl talk bad things bhind my back....and i m oso a gurl who very "kecil hati".....i think so...wat else i can say about myself le...???i am oso a gurl who dun hav trust in anyone....cuz i hav once been betrayed by my best frenz.........since then........i hav no trust in anyone......n i dun believe in frenz....thus....i dun hav best friend after all..........haiz........eh.......i oso dun noe wat to say bout myself lo......yeah....b4 i forget....i am a gurl who is very violent.....last time....i love to bully the boyz.....but since i go to secondary school....my violent hav decrease lo......gurl....should be so violent ke???but i still like to bully my bro......ok la...i think tat's all for today...........i wanna continue to watch my tv lo.....hahaha
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Posted by
imkenix
on
4:34 PM
in
emo_meiyee
actually how is the feeling of being a happy person.........???? happy??? i think in my dictionary....there is no the word "happy".....i really dun understand why i always feel sad n depressed de.....??? although i noe......as i am living in this beautiful world.......i should enjoy n be happy every second of it.....but juz dun noe how to express that feeling......i juz feel sad la.........others ppl holidays..........happy...go here n there for vacations.....but for me.........i hav no where to go........i juz can hang around at my tiny little room oli........facing the four walls........i wan to be happy.......OMG.....i think abt it n i found out that i haven't be really happy this year.........this year is really a terrible year for me la....everything i hav done this year seem bad.......no matter in wat category........but xpecially de scout la.........yesterday i read back my blog..........i feel very sad.........for wat's happening to de SCOUT this year..............i really "sai sam" lo.....to SCOUT.....but i think problems will exist next year...........n many problems are cuming......but i think it is already none of my business la....but it is better dun involve me in those troubles jau ok la.............next year..........is CCY really transfer to sentosa .......but y can he be so "cekal" ke....say wan transfer jau transfer ke??? i really wanna salute him lo.............another things tat i am unhappy of is y sum of my frens is so irresponsible ke?? borrow liao ppl things dunno return back....??? ppl ask liao still dun wan return ka??? i really hate this kind of ppl ge la....so hateful la.............ok la..........this few days..........i hav insomnia again.........so tmr i wanna write a blog abt my history or mayb a blog abt me myself ge la........if i gt on9.........in the middle of the night..........hahaha!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
on
3:53 PM
Oo.....i juz cum back from penang at 10pm juz now......at last i am free to post a blog but of course i am free now........HOLIDAYS ma........but my holidays seem to be quite dull n bored la.....so sian la......holidays......those s2pid the frens oso din accompany me to this trip.......make me feel so sian...........but watever la.........OO.....i hav a terrible day in penang la.........i hav never taste such an untasty food b4 in penang......thus i always thought that penang food is the best......but this time during the trip....all those food that i eat.....no matter chay kuay teow, prawn noodles......n many many more.....are not tasty la...........thus in the trip, i lost all my appetite la......moreover....i am not feeling so well too.....always feel wanted to vomit.....flu......n cough like hell.....n i oso feel a bit dizzy during the time.....we walked around the heritage XXX........dun noe why every times....i visit those temples....i oso feel dizzy ke la............n all of us (FORM 4) oso hav stomachache.........dun noe wat hav we eat until all of us oso stomachache..........terrible....TERRIBLE la.......after all the visit to temples..........n all those historical building.....kek lok si.....we travel to the beach.............because of my laziness..........i dun wan to put off my shoes..thus i din play at the water....juz walking beside the beach observing our group playing so "shuang".........in the bus.....all the boys are making a lot of noise.........screaming.....yelling and watever la.........and at last we reach kampar at abt 10pm lo.........i quickly switch on my computer once i reach home.....after i take my comfortable bath............i mei on9 until now lo...............gt a chance chatting with ah jie.........she say she will bring me to penang so that i can taste those delicious food that i hav eaten 2 years ago (if not mistaken) when ah jie is working at penang.......oo.....i hope i can go there n eat TASTY food but not those UNTASTY food anymore..........getting crazy ge la......later when i go kerian campfire..............hope that i ll hav a gud time at there..........!!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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4:12 PM
unbelievable......................i can't believe that i will cut my hair until so short...........i feel so "tak sampai hati" la.............wonder that hair suit me or not..............???? today is sam sam bufday.....we go to LF n celebrate with her...........have a lotz of fun..........although her bufday juz past.....but i oso wanna wish her happy bufday..........n may her wish cum true.............!!!! ok la....ntg to write la.....so i juz stop here la.....i wanna go sleep lu......
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Posted by imkenix
on
2:53 PM
i feel so suffering...........i feel that i aredi can't breathe...........i juz seem to be "lemas" in the sea.......meaning no one can even save me ge la......last night......i feel stressed....that i nearly gone mad........i feel so tension with the exam...........i am scared that my result for the final is worse than the selaras 2................i scared i will fail all the subjects.............but whenever i say i am very scared about the exam........my frenz will say that i juz pretending.....they say that i won't get fail ge....n say that i am cheating la......but the truth is that i really really dun know a single answer for the questions asked...........tomorrow is the last paper.........est......i feel more terrible after the exam..........why? cuz i will be getting all my marks...........i can't imagine wat marks am i gonna to get.......i feel that i am really a failure la........even though i go for tuition for almost all the subjects.....but the results i get can't even higher than a person who dun even hav one tuition............juz like my bm paper 2......i hav a good teacher at school n oso a tuition teacher.......but i only managed to get 75marks out of 110marks............wat a failure.......everything i done oso does not seem right.............maybe i really need a good rest after the exam.........i should go on a vacation..............so that i can forget all my burden...........why i 24hours oso feel very sad n depressed geh.....???? why i dun enjoy my life as someone say to me that i should enjoy my school life.............!!!!! yes la......but as i am a very stubborn person....i need some time..........to think about my life............ok la........i should sleep as tommorow still got exam....trying to be optimistic................haiz.......... (^.^) happy always....meiyee
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Posted by imkenix
on
12:20 PM
Oo......at last the final exam starts.............n today is the third day of the exam...............so sian la......i HATE EXAM.........!!!! today my history paper really sucks la...............when all the questions.....i oso dun noe.........die lo me..............later so more bad when i ans the moral paper..............juz the same.......SUCK.............oh i so tension la.........when next week the exam...........all oso seem to be very tough for me.............xpecially the bio........n physics.............oMG.................exam faster end la.....i already can't stand such a pressure...........this few days i.....oso dun hav a gud sleep as i went to bed at 4 sumthing........then wake up at 6.30..............so tired and suffering la...............i hope that i din do things at the eleventh-hour.............thinking about my english paper.............i think my essay will fail la.............as i done many mistake at my essay.................sian la...........b4 i forgot..........today is my fren.....pei shin bufday.............wish her will hav a happy day today la.....n oso gud luck for her exam.................HAPPY BIRTHDAY.........pei shin.............today PSS hav held the "mesyuarat agung"..............n the ajk for next year hav been "diumumkan".............n i am the pengerusi of the PSS...................so happy la.....of course..............but i scared i can't do it la..............cuz that's a quite big responsibility............i hope i can do my best la.....as the pengerusi for the PSS next year...........ok la...........it's quite late lo...........n i am going to do my revision as tomorrow hav maths exam la..............must do sum preparations.............
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Posted by imkenix
on
3:53 AM
it hav been ages....i din post any blog recently......cuz i am sort of "busy"...la.....exam is juz 2 days left but.....wat hav i done........????? i really dun hav any idea about it......at first...i am very " tekad" to study ge.....but then...cuz i can't understand wat i am studying abt that bio.....i giv up la.....i hav use 4 days to study on it.....but i still at chapter 2.....y actually i can't understand it..............OOh....i am sure of it.........cuz i never listen to wat my teacher teach in class lo...........wat a USELESS person am i!!!...........after i giv up on that bio.........i suddenly "sudah terjebak dlm" games..........i play games everyday since the day i surrender to that bio.....i become addicted to the games............i play games until 5.30 in the morning..................the juz on friday..........i get sick jor.....luckily....on saturday.........i feel better.....thanks god......today during i went for bm tuition.........i asked my frenz..hav they study for the exam.....i feel that they all must finish revising..........juz me who haven't done all that...........OO...i am so scared that i will fail my exam..............xpecially the bio....sejarah....n add maths.....n not forget physics too...........ok la.............i think i won't post any blogs until my exam end..............hope that i will hav a better result la......may god bless me la.........USELESS meiyee.......................
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Posted by imkenix
on
11:15 AM
oUr faitH aNd oUr fRieNdsHiP aRe nOt sHattEreD bY oNe biG aCt, bUt bY maNy sMaLL nEgLecTs...friends..........our friendship really ruined by those small matters.......actually wat's the problems.......why each year i must quarrel with one of my frenz ge........??? the problems are with me or at my frenz le.....??? but i think most of it.....the problems is surely with me ge la.....juz like last year..........bcuz of some small matters.........i quarrel with swet yee...n we din talk for 1 year...........wat a waste...........ho? n this year...........once again quarrel with that guy...............?? u think when am i gonna to fren back with him le.??? but that guy......i every year oso quarrel with him ge la.......cuz u know his attitude la.........8 ma, rite...........sometimes.......he juz will making fun of u without notice that that he is actually irritates others............juz like this time......mayb he is juz wanna play play........but without notice........he actually making me angry la.........so geram la.....OO.........juz chatting with cheong yew...........i ask him whether he is really wanna transfer to sentosa.....he say yes.....but he scared that the school dun let me......to go....if he really cum to sentosa.......then good lo.....can hav a frenz to chat with...........wakaka..........then can bully him juz like in primary school..........haha miss those times.........sweet memory la.............* ah ling...i so gud le........u say wanna read my blog..then i write one for u to read lo....wakaka
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Posted by imkenix
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1:01 PM
Oo..........finally i know that if ppl...sick jor...will really feel suffering.........OMG..i sick jor....la....i hav flu....and a bit of fever........i feel so terrible....during the school times....and at last...i really can't stand it...so i sleep in class liao...after school..........after i having my lunch....n my medicines.........i sleep like a corpse for 6 hours.....n of course......i miss all my tuition class....juz after..........i wake up...........i feel so dizzy....so teruk la......then later i go out to buy my dinner......n go to take back my photostat papers......after consuming my delicious "wan tan mee".....i mei on9 a while lo.....then........i chat a while.....with hui xin......rupa-rupanya.....many ppl oso got read my blog........hui xin say she got read my blog.....then she asked y i seem unhappy ge......yes lo ho....y i seem unhappy ge....WAT makes me feels so sad???? i oso dunno la....but i really try hard not to be sad for no purpose........so now.....i am feeling better now........but one more things i quite fan abt is......dunno whether i should go for the form 5 kl n genting trip or not??? but i already go for the penang trip.........so i dunno whether i hav so much money or not............but i really wanna go to genting wo.........so dunno le...??? but kah yan gt go wo.....ok la.....no matter wats.......see first la...whether who else gt go.....so bad la..2moro still hav to go to school.......got extra class for add maths...ai yo
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Posted by imkenix
on
11:18 AM
Oo.....at last i know my characteristics are.......today i suddenly wanted to know how my friends think abt me....so i asked my "lion" abt my characteristics....oo...i am so glad that she tell me the truth....finally i know that i am a very emotional person.....especially when i am doing my homework.....yes...i am totally agree with her......cuz i really will get mad when someone disturb me while i am doing my account, add maths and even chemistry....but i will try my best not to be so emotional next time......furthermore...she oso said that i am very stubborn......cuz she say once i wanna resign.....i won't change my mind wo.....but i am not sure whether....i am stubborn or maybe "cekal hati"......she oso got mention that i talk very loudly in class.....yes lo....i think i really quite noisy in class................OO....finally i know my bad characteristics.........i promise myself..........i will change my attitude........from now onwards.....i promise myself.......i will start my revision.........n if necessary.......i will stop on9 for a while............so that i can concentrate on my studies.......today....i oso not feeling well............today during......i go tuition that time........i almost fall into the drain........when a lorry juz turn suddenly......luckily i managed to jump off the bicycle on time.if not i can't imagine wat will happen to me lo.........GOD bless..!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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10:39 AM
Oo....i am so disappointing of myself...it is already the end of the year since PMR is juz one week left.....Why i feel so DIFFERENT....??? Last year, during these period of time....i seem working and struggling very hard for my PMR. But me now is only "struggling very hard" to online, msning and oso watching television non-stop until i "burn the midnight oil".......ppl burn their midnight oil for studying but...........for me juz doing all these rubbish.....WHY???? WHAT IS MY PROBLEMS??? actually i know that i am very lazy and i always like to online without time management....but i really can't help with my bad and terrible attitude.....i always promise myself to study and do revision on the topic which i am weak in...BUT........dunno why my promise cannot last for even 2 weeks ....Once i saw the computer, i will definitely go and switched it on and started to online....i am so addicted to it now....How can i cure my "sickness" ??? WHAT SHOULD I DO??? To add to that, i am very disappointed with my frenz.......i feel very sad........and extremely sad......Yugathes often asked me whether i hav found my true frenz or not.....? i think in all my school times.....i won't find my true frenz......so i hav decided to give up......looking forward for my true frenz....Actually i oso dun wan to giv up but....wat can i do?? Maybe i really dunno wat is friendship all abt?? or mayb there's something wrong with my attitudes.....but i really cannot do anything now..!!! if they are really my true frenz, they should undestand me and guide me to the correct way.....but they DID'T...??? they didn't try to understand me.....or even wanted to know more abt me.....!! Yugathes got ask me before why i dun like tell my frenz my problems?? Let me tell you why .....i dun like to share my problems with my frenz..!! this is because i feel that about all my frenz cannot be trusted..........if i tell them something......they sure will tell to others....i dun hav trust in anyone including myself !!! maybe because i like to "pendamkan" all my feelings...that's why i always feel sad and depress..!! ok.....watever la....cuz until i finish my form 5 oso ......i won't find the person who i can trust...then .....juz forget abt it lo.....LEAVE me ALONE!!!!LONELY YEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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2:46 PM
Today is the 21st of september 2007......today my frenz are going to celebrate their bufday.....together....they r consists of YY, MC, CY n CH too.......Today morning........i was very sleepy in school during the last period......n oso during my tuition time........feeling so tired..........but sure la..i can't sleep during tuition time..........it'll be very no manners.............but then when i go for account tuition.........i bcum so "sedar" liao......wakaka.....so funny la..............but sad la.....cuz i can't do one of the questions......but after tuition i oso not yet try the question back........i go take back my computer which i take it to format yesterday.....i am so glad that my computer was ok now.......huh.....Then i go on9 until 7.30.....then oli off9 cuz i hav to take my dinner n my shower too before i go to the party.......then time that i paling benci is.........why ppl like to cum not on time ge??? ppl aredi say cum at 8.00 but they all cum at 8.45.....haiz............very disappointed la.....but nvm cuz it is not my bufday la.............i won't care so much abt it......during the party was on..........wat i observed is that the whole group of us seem are divided into many gang.......huh!!!! Luckily....hui xin n the gang din cum..........if not i sure they will oli sit with their group.........n oli chat with their gang oli........n definitely will not hav so much fun la......then..........later at abt 10 sumthing.....they "potong" de cake lo....they all play very "din".......they throw the cream to each others la.........n spray the "things" to each others lo.....so we all bcum very dirty liao....lo...but me...luckily din get so much so the cream.....as i hide myself liao....but that naughty ai nee n jia xin......throw that cream at me....when i am not alert that time.......so bad la.....then go to imax to on9 lo.....chat a while then go home liao.......now i wanna go for a shower again.........n hav a sweet sleep....n dream too......wakaka
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Posted by imkenix
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12:28 PM
Omg......my computer was infected by viruses.............wat hav cuz those viruses....i oso dun know..but wat i do is.....i am very frusfrated liao....i hav many things in my computer.....if i go to format my computer....sure everythings in my computer will be gone......i hav many power point presentations to do....hmm......so geram la...............today as usual......very sad...lo...in the early on the morning....some conflict hav occured in my class....between swet yee n chun hung.....swet yee was angry with that chun hung....n she wanted to sit back with wai sam......therefore....i hav to leave lo.......i dun like to sit over there...becuz of sumone lo........but nvm i will sit with my lion....today the whole day.....i try not to talk with that particular person.......so geram with him la.....malas la pedulinya...........i become more geram when that s2pid history teacher.........came to class......i hav never meet such a teacher before la..........so "geng" la.....her...she can juz finish a chapter juz in one week times.....although the chapter is extremely long........WHY? Cuz she oli ask ppl to read......then she juz giv sum exercises on that particular chapter......then the chapter was over ge la..........but all of us.......dun even know wat is that chapter all abt...............i really wan kill her.....she always talk abt "pahala" during the fasting month........but i wonder will she get the pahala............as she din even carry out her duty as a history teacher..........she din teach........she din even explain to us........never told us how to answer the questions.............really wan to f--k her la...........s2pid teacher!!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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1:10 PM
Today as usual...i go to school at around 7.15am......there's a ceremony to bless all the form 3 students.....seem very grand la the ceremony.......because of that ceremony....i hav to miss my chemistry period.....so bad la.......during the ceremony...i keep on sneezing.....wat a terrible morning i hav.....after that.....we all went back to class lo..........quite sleepy de.....but i keep on doing my add maths questions......so geram when i can't solve that particular question.....then i went to ask chun hung to help me solve that problem.....then later go recess lo......after having ur meal.....we went to the lobby.....n i ask YY abt the BP......then XXX say y i so care abt the party.....as that party is not mine BP party.....that time...i aredi feel that the words hurt me....then later i went back to class....n i went to take back my add maths book.....n oso my pencil.....that time XXX2 n XXX3......oso say something that hurt my feelings......i dun care whether wat they think.....but wat they say really made me feel sad.....i feel so sad......n i rasa diri saya telah dipinggirkan.....so i juz go back to my place n do my work silently......i aredi dun care how ppl think abt me.......!!! WHY should i care abt how ppl think abt me??? THEY never care abt my feeling.......!!!! haiz...frenz??? for wat FRENZ are???.......so i hav made up my mind that i won't care how they plan their party....who are they going to invite.....n watever it is la..... i will oli show myself on this friday.....i fed up with all of them aredi..........but i noe there is still some of them who will care abt me ge....juz like SY....she cum over to me....n ask why am i looking so sad.....n she oso ask me to smile la.......i feel that......i am very weird la........ppl if din get enough sleep...sure will feel tired the next day..but i didn't....i will feel tired if i get enough sleep....juz like yesterday....i sleep at 10.00....but today......i am extremely tired de....dun know wat de problems with me......
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Posted by imkenix
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12:48 PM
oMg.....i can't sleep la tis few days.......although..it's aredi 3pm...4pm...or even 5pm....i still can't sleep....i feel so....!!??......dunnoe how to describe that feelings....but why suddenly i hav such a weird habit.......juz like yesterday.......i oli sleep for.....abt 1 hours...but actually i am not tired at all during i when to bed....but juz because my mum scold me....then i went back to my room...and then continue doing my stuff all.....but later....i think i should rest for a while....if not i sure will sleep in the class..but when i go school that time.......i still feel very fresh......i din even sleep in the class.............but the matter with me......is that i will juz feel tired during the evening....that's the time i go for sleep........what can i do????? i think it is becoming more serious each day.....cuz on monday....i sleep at 3......then on tuesday......i sleep at 5......hope that today....i can sleep earlier le.....i am very tension tis few days......many projects that i havto hand out.....add maths..... ULBS.....tuition de homeworks.....school homeworks....n i feel that the final exam is juz around the corner..........and i seem really....UNPREPARED.......so wat should i do????? almost every night..........i am thinking abt this matter............but i really can't help with it..........n my friends all are having "cold war".........wonder when would they stop the "war".......actually wat i hate abt is that tis coming sun....there'll be a treasure hunt.....in my group.......ky n ws......they hav quarrel n until now oso haven't talk with each other......so i dun wan they treat me as a medium to transfer msg........i feel that if u wan to talk to him or her.........why u wan me to help u to sampaikan semula....le.......i HATE ALL tis...........TERRIBLE
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2:37 PM
| K | Kind |
| E | Enchanting |
| N | Nerdy |
| I | Intense |
| X | XtRemE |
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| K | Kind |
| H | Honest |
| O | Orderly |
| N | New |
| G | Great |
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| M | Modern |
| E | Entertaining |
| I | Influential |
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Posted by imkenix
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2:25 PM
Today morning.....is really a bad day for me.....!!! Yesterday....i sleep very early....then today at 4 sumthing....wake up jor...cuz feeling so cold....but then me so lazy sure i continue sleeping la......then at 6...wake up n feel that my right eye "bengkang" jor.....feeling so terrible la....one eye smaller jo.....since my eye "bengkang" liao.....i really dun hav mood.....then i packed up all my books and wait for my turn to bath...after that....i put some medicine to my eye....after that...abt 7.15am ....go skul......really no mood la.....after the assembly....go back to class lo....then we were inform that today no physics class....so i start to do my add math exercise lo.....then that kah yan went to ask for money....as me really dun hav money...so i say i din bring lo....she say in a quite high tone..."i aredi told u yesterday ge ma...." i dun like ppl rushing me to pay...if i got money sure i am going to pay you....la....but i still remember during the beginning of the year ....when i collect money for de library....she oso say like tat to me ge la....then she like marah jo tim.... but today....since my eye is not feeling comfortable...and my mood really bad that time.....i juz dun wan talk to her jo......i very angry with her ar......this few days...very fan la.....cuz kah yan and yoke yin marah liao....wai sam n the gang.......cuz a small matter....why they all so "kecil hati" ge.....terrible...betul la....so today..wai sam....ask me to ask kah yan whether.....she still wanna join with her during the treassure hunt.....??? then we all go to the lab to watch movie....there...yoke yin and kah yan are playing calculator sms....i juz concentrate on my add maths oli.....while they all watch movie....but as i hear all of them laughing so happy...i watch that movie a while....it's really funny la....after physics period ended....we all go back to class.....then later kah yan send me a sms with her calculator....she ask me to tell wai sam that wai sam still owe her a exercise book.....i feel bad la.....i dun like being treated as a medium to transfer information from one's mouth to another.....i hate to do tis...furthermore i am still angry with her.....later i told wai sam abt the things.....so juz after recess.....wai sam giv me a new exercise book..n ask me to giv back to her...Why they are so funny?......cuz a little problem....they angry liao...each other....then when gud liao....bukan main rapatnya mereka......cannot stand it anymore......my eye is feeling better now...not so "bengkang"...liao....today really feel so sorry la....if i got show my unhappy face to all my frens...or even not saying a "hi"...to u all guys.....SORRY la...cuz me today really not happy la.......rain....rain.....and rain......once again i am getting wet......when i go tuition that time.......i really jealous la...to those who got parents...who fetch them to tuition.....after all my tuition......i go home and on9 until now....juz now chat wit hui xin.....i "listen" to wat she write about all her sweet memories....i am really jealous....with her as she got many sweet memories in st.john and oso with her friends.....but me......haiz....all my sweet memories...are slowly changing to bad memories......but honestly.......all my sweet memories are when i was in lower form.....b4 the "W" join scout.......i still remember that time....i first join scout....my first day..of entering scout is that i learned kawad...then later ....i n 4 others girls n a group of boys.....when for the ujian lencana usaha..........i really enjoy that moments.....very happy.....then after the usaha camp....hing wai ask me to join all the boys to go for maju camp......Wow....!! i feel so proud la that time cuz....me one gurl....lead all the boys.....hehe....teringat pun dah gembira....hehe!!!! that time i really like SCOUT very very much............going camp.....go scout house....go gathering....having activities in skul and many more......really happy...laform 2 is the year where we all done sth really wrong......which is kicked hing wai out of SCOUt....cuz "they" all making report on wat hav hing wai done........that year is really bad.....but hing wai is really nice person as she still help me, chun hung and man heng on the preparations to the Jaya camp........in the camp....we oso feel so lucky as irene n the acs senior are there....they help us a lot in building our "khemah"....form 3....i think is my happiest year ever......as this year...we are having our camp in skul....for the first time.....me as the assistant secretary tim....enjoy those time...riding on chai teng "ego" scooter....go trace for the track...of the pengembara......go meeting...at chun hung house......playing together.....during "halangan komando"....so fun.....but all these are going to end ge la......and i won't find back the happiness forever......cuz of the presence of "W".....that's all for today.......i think..cuz i wanna go sleep liao....friendship?....how can i find true friendship??......will i be going to miss my school times after my form 5??? really dun noe la....but actually there's nothing for me to miss about....so ntg la...ok la....really hav to stop jor....gud night.....god bless me......n my frenz
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Posted by imkenix
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9:24 AM
very nice le....this picture......my son, lik wak draw ke wo.....sure nice la....hehe..wonder when can i finish the t-shirt design
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Posted by imkenix
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9:06 AM
wat a lousy principal i hav.....? today morning.....as usual....we will hav ur physics class....but today as puan lee absent.....so we juz stay in the class lo.......although that period is actually the P.E. class.....we all chat with our frenz all usual............then suddenly that bullshit principal came in and ask us who is the teacher tat should cum to class........then we say it's now physics period....but then dun noe who told him that the teacher incharge is puan farhah.....after he go to the next class to see puan farhah...he cum back to our class and start to giv us lecture.........he say we all must go P.E....dun juz stay in de class.....then wonder y suddenly.....he talk about his son la.....computer la.....biology.......n the internet..........???? wonder wat rubbish is he talking about..............???? actually i really hate him la.....since he cum to our school .....he change everything.........during assembly......ask us to "masuk baris"....."sedia" juz like during co-curriculum......then now...he say we all students cannot wear those spects....which have thick and colourful frame..........bullshit....if he wan me to change my specs.......can....if he pay for my specs....which almost cost 400 sumthing.....u think we r very rich ke? i HATE that stupid pricipal la.......plz go other school...la....for wat he came to my school.....ha....
about the co-curriculum........i today heard ai nee....tell chun hung to paste sumthing on the board.....then chun hung ask her is it 7.30 on saturday........i think it is a meeting on saturday le....if it is true.....i think i won't go ke le...cuz as puan lee say co-curriculum hav ended this year...for wat i go....malas la....
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Posted by imkenix
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12:23 PM
It is a fingernail so important to a female? Today i am really shocked when one of my frenz is being asked to cut off her nail....oMg....it is juz a fingernail....juz cut it la...although i know...she "tak sampai hati" cuz the nail she kept aredi very long.... but we as a student...must follow de skul rules de ma...n at last she was being forced to cut it off....when she came back to class.....her eyes r watery.....i think she wanna cry lo......but i dun think we should cry over a nail.....if u cut it...later it will grow back oso......her mood after that was really down.....she juz sleep in class....n dun peduli everyone is the class......until i go home tat time...i see her still in that bad mood......in the evening....at about 4.21pm.....i was almost knocked by a car......that car driver really bull shit la...cuz "de driver" put the signal to turn left but then he go straight suddenly.....me really geram la.......i wanna kill tat driver n wonder how he got his license??? cuz i was being scared by the car......i once again...almost knock by a motorcycle....luckily nothing happen....thanks GOD!!Ok la...i wanna stop here la....i wanna do my homeworks
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Posted by imkenix
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1:52 PM
I am so nervous and scared nowadays.....xpecially when i saw those form 5 de students are already having their trial.......OMG juz one more year to go......n me myself will be sitting for the spm trial....SPM.....time really past very fast......juz a blink of eyes.........n i already in form 4 this year........juz now i read ah ling the comment......she said that the trial paper is very difficult.....xpecially de sj......actually that day...hui xin oso got told me tat de sj paper 2 is damn difficult ke wo........they so "keng" oso said the questions are difficult.....Ooo.... then wat will happen to me if i am the one who is taking the exam....me sure get 9......i really dun understand why i am so lazy this year.......i always plan to do all my homeworks.....during holidays.....but the results usually is that i will juz do when date due.......What had happen to me??? Why can't i juz concentrate at my studies???? I must control myself.....i can't let the laziness control me....i must overcome my problems..........i suppose to study right now.......but juz can't control myself so juz on9 lo......but i must plan my time wisely......cuz i oso need some times to relax my mind........study hard....meiyee........i know that i can do it......add oil meiyee!!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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2:45 PM
Today is the last day of the school holidays......that's mean in another 6 hours.......i'll have to go back to school...haiz.........Juz now.....my parents and i went to KTAR to watch the"SGM Malam Mesra Kebudayaan".....Quite enjoying ke.....de performance........Today morning oso we got MKKP meeting........lastly.....i manage to officially resign from my posts......i am really glad....n i hope tat after my resignation.....i can concentrate at my studies......le....Actually i feel quite soli cuz my resignation will make them hav to cut down one of the PL and oso to reorganise the patrol again.......i am so SORRY la..... but that is not what i want....!!! in the meeting...me and my friends are being punished....to do de "frog jump"........so painful la.....i hate doing tat...........i really dun not UNDERSTAND.....why should i be punished? For wat is the punishment? I am so confusing la.......now my legs still feel very pain...wondering how am i going to march.....sometimes i really dun like to attend any of the meeting tat is organise by the SCOUT....i will be very "geram" whenever i talk or heard about SCOUT de things........ok la......i hope tat.........from now on.......there is nothing about SCOUT in my blogs.......... ok la....i wan go to check my mails la....gud nite my blog.....hehehehe......
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Posted by imkenix
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2:47 PM
Wow......today hav been a happy day for me.......as me and my friends went to ipoh...one day trip..hehe!!!! At around 9.30am...ivis and her bro.....cum and fetch me....after tat, we go fetch carrot, salestie n kira.........then we go directly to the bus station.......on our way there...we saw the "kid" cycling home....i think ! we all gather up......n wait for de others...then swet yee came...n later on....LMC oso reach there aredi....the bus to ipoh hav arrive lo.....then LMC say tat de "kid" will reach in 30 seconds....within 30 seconds....de "kid" came.....Wow....de "kid" really fast la.....(swet yee was being scolded by the bus conductor.....while the BC is collecting the bus fees......so rude la de BC....haiz.....poor customer service...!!!!)
after a hour....we reach our first destination.....which is the ipoh bus station. There, we take a bus to JJ....as we reach JJ.....we quickly went to the cinema...to buy the tickets....we divided into two groups....one group...which consists of me...ivis..LMC..."kid".....we went to watch "rush hour 3" while the others went to watch "secret" by jay....as our movie started at 1.30pm...so we plan to walk around first...after some while....we decided to hav our lunch first.....we hav our lunch at KFC....cuz ivis got some discount coupons....after finish our meal....we quickly walk to the cinema..as my watch aredi shown 1.25pm...LMC helps us to buy popcorn n soft drinks......the movie is really funny ......xpecially chris tucker....he is juz a funny guy la....having a lot of fun watching this movie........
after that.......we go to look for swet yee n the gang.....we search everywhere but oso din find her...later she send me a sms...n i ask her where she is...she say she is at the food court....four of us went upstair again to look for them....then we walk a while at JJ.....n rush to ipoh parade....i buy a necklace at bum city......i like that necklace very much.........we walk n walk until 6.30pm....we quiclky take a bus n went back to the ipoh bus station.....OO.....we missed de bus....cuz LMc go to toilet....we wait n wait.....then LMC tell us there is something to see under the bridge.....me n salestie went n see....OMG!! wat r the 2 ppl doing....? "memang memalukan....n that two ppl...really rendah akhlaknya" How can they do such a thing in public.....???? won't they feel ashamed? then....they left aredi.....2 bus came.........but the bus dun't wan to "jalan".....a security guard.....was so "geram".....he make a lot of noise.....later on.....a bus came........n we quickly rushed into de bus.........we reach kampar at about 8.50pm......then we wait for ivis's bro....to cum n fetch me.........at last i reach home...lo.......juz after having my dinner n now........i am going to take a bath......n go to bed......wat an enjoyable day in ipoh.....hehe!!
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Posted by imkenix
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12:54 PM
Today is the forth day of the holiday...but i din feel that i am in a holiday mood.......i am very stress la......many things happen 2day.......2nite...i sms ai nee to tell her tat my bro n i can't come for tomorrow de marching practise...........then she say never mind.....but she reminded us tat thursday n friday still got practise....i then told her that i am not free ma........then i ask her again tat whether i need to come to tis sun de meeting or not? she say we hav to discuss about it.....Wat is tat? she say we hav to discuss about my resignation.....she say if i wanna to resign....i must get all de mkp member de agreement..wo.....haiz.......why so TROUBLESOME???? i juz wanna to resign oli ma....juz agree mei....ok lo....holiday is so boring.....holidays is juz meaningless....i din hav any plan 4 my holidays as my whole week oso got tuition la.....so lazy.... but at least...2moro...i will be going to ipoh....to watch movie la...i think i can relax a bit.....hope i really will....ok la....i wanna continue to do my homework la....so many homework for my holiday la....
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Posted by imkenix
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2:29 PM
fiNaLLy.....de walk-a-hunt was over !!!! disappointed la.....cuz lose liao....but never mind as i hav a lot of fun during the competition....hehe!!! 2day.....those who take part in the walk-a-hunt oso dun hav to becum the helpers of the carnival as our competition juz ended at around 2pm....we all waited for so long....feel a bit bored while i am waiting.....haiz.......today morning........i woke up quite early de.....after i hav prepare myself.....i wait for sam sam to find me......cuz we wan go eat breakfast......but finally....i go to find them as they are very late liao.....we all quickly cycle to de "pasar" where we ate our breakfast....we all eat very fast as we scared we will be late.....luckily....we are juz on time when we reached pei yuan (SUWA).....!!!! then..ai nee ask us to "hantar" de "borang kebenaran ibu bapa".....then ai nee giv sum talk lo....we were told to be discipline cuz we all are representing 239th Kinta scout..... at around 7.55am....shok yien ask ai nee whether those who gt walk-a-hunt can leave mei? after ai nee ask us to go....we all 6 team quickly rushed to the basketball court...there, we are given a sticker, a flag....n sum bread....after sum time....the competition begin....many of our school de ppl oso got take part la....example like ah hwa..ah mok..yau kar foo.....hui qing....sundra..mun sing....n etc.during the competition...we really hav to think n think as the questions are quite difficult de...after answer all the questions.......we juz "hantar" de question paper....lo at around 11.30pm..then we walked back to the basketball court.......there....we waited for so long until i can't follow my parents to ipoh.....so bad la...sob!! so disappointed when none of our team got a prize....n oli wilson got a tin of biscuit (i think la) during the lucky draw....he was so lucky la.....before tat...emily call ai nee n tell her tat our event haven't finish yet......later...emily tell us tat we dun hav to go back to pei yuan after the announcement of the winner....n we were told tat we can go home right after the announcement......so glad tat we dun hav to be de helper....cuz i aredi feel very tired jo....then, sam sam....lion n me cycle back to TBB n we went to hav our lunch together....after tat....lion n i went to somewhere la.....after 30min......we left...n i go home n on9 lo.....but after a while de internet lost connection.....i was so "geram"....n i go watch dvd....."heart of greed" again n again...cuz very best la de story....i wonder tat....how am i gonna to spend my holidays.....??? but i am sure tat i will go ipoh tis wednesday cuz wan watch movie ma....long time din go ipoh liao......n today miss jo as my parents got go ipoh la...haiz.......but one thing for sure is tat my holidays are full with homework n tuition here n there....that's mean i dun hav holiday lo......HOLIDAYS juz for me to sleep a little bit late....hehe.....ok la....wanna go to sleep la.....juz like pig la......always wanna to sleep oli.....wakakaka.....
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Posted by imkenix
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12:40 PM
Oo.....i am very excited about 2moro...de walk-a-hunt..!!! wonder my team can win or not??? Hope can win le.....i need money very much.....hehe!!! But after 2moro de walk-a-hunt.....we all still have to becum de helpers of the carnival...organise by sin chew jit poh....quite lazy de la.....
2day....once again...i almost late for school.....cuz yesterday....3.30 sumthing oli sleep...cuz watching tv and wan 2 finish all my homework ma....at least now....i hav finish 30% of my homework la....then when reach school ....realised tat the floor is all wet...how am i gonna to sit on it....oMg...2day got "majlis pelancaran bulan kemerdekaan"....tat's mean i am gonna to sit for a longer time....sure my skirt will be wet lo.....haiz......
actually feel a little boring.....2day in class....cuz all my frenz din make any noise.....they all juz seem so quiet la......kinda of weird la.....i so "geram" la.....cuz cannot go lost world...i wanna go but can't la...firstly i thought i wan 2 join ah wai n de gang ge....but now can't follow as this sunday got many tuition la....i thought can go relax myself ge....but never mind la...we'll go after the final exam....hehe..
i think there is oso nothing special happen in my life 2day le.....cuz i juz concentrate on my homework...n i din care abt anything tat happen around me.....after school got.....meeting...ai nee as usual will giv us some briefing on tat carnival.... those who are taking part in the walk-a-hunt oso hav to be de helper for de carnival....feeling quite lazy de.....but never mind la....i now will juz follow orders....then...de MKP hav to stay back for meeting....darren oso gt cum but juz a little bit late...then we started our meeting..lo..he ask us whether we got any complain abt de backwood cooking or not....i juz dun hav any comments.....at 1.40pm ...de meeting was dismissed....n i quickly rushed back home after taking my t-shirt for the walk-a-hunt....when i am on my way back.....darren passed by n ask me to find him someday...to talk abt my case....my case??? isn't about my resignation???? i feel very worry la......ok la...dun wan to talk so much le.....bye bye my blog.....!!! 2 more days to go....yuges n yugathes de bufday la.....wishing them to having a great holidays n oso bufday la....hehe!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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1:02 PM
Wow!!! Today i feel so free la.....mayb because i aredi din have de burden...on my shoulder gua....i must promise to myself tat starting from now on.....i should study hard!!!! But today oso feel a little bit sad.....
Today morning....i feel a little sad...cuz mayb about de resignation as i quite scared tat ai nee won't approve my resign....but then after we all went back to class.....i was being scared by sam sam n wilson...as they both quarrel early in de morning.....sam sam was very "geram".....after both of them quarrel.......sam sam n i went to toilet...i ask her y she feel so angry de.....But after we went back.....i went back to my place n start to do my homework.... Later.....i heard shok yien mumbling.....feeling so weird...i look at her lo....OO....i noe y...she is so angry le...cuz ai nee "kuatkan" de fan....shok yien say tat she is very cold...so she went to slow down de fan....Today is really a sad day la.....All my classmates seem to be feeling very down...........they all look sad....chun hung feel say after quarreling...shok yien who is very angry cum over n sit wif us....i ask her y she din sit wif ai nee? but she din answer me....! wondering wat happen to my frenz...? Why they feel so sad de?? i start feeling sad for ai nee.....why shok yien din "peduli" her ke?? I oso forget liao wat happen after tat....as i remember...my est teacher ask us..whether peers or frenz are important to us or not?? i answered tat i won't need frenz so much which i mean....i won't die....although i dun hav frenz..but conclusion is i still need frenz la..i juz wondering when can i find my true frenz....close one ge la....hihi...wat am i talking about.....? seem juz like talking rubbish la....wakaka...then after finish school...we all scout hav to stay back...marching ma....but then oli i realised...tat today marching practise cancel liao....but still got meeting cuz ai nee wan 2 giv some briefing...on tis saturday ge.... sin chew carnival n de walk-a-hunt....but during tat meeting...i see shok yien feel very frusfrated.....she actually dun like to wear the scarf during the walk-a-hunt.....juz wanna say.....dun treat ur close fren like tis la....haiz.....ntg to say le!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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12:06 PM
Today should be a happy day for me......but all this was being ruined when the co-curiculum started at 1.55pm.......Before i talk on the topic that really made me wanna to shout"FUCK".....i'll start my blog wif something happy.......Today morning after the assembly.....puan yasmin called all the girls to stay back....that time....i was blur blur de.....i dun noe wanna to stay back oso.....hihi...puan yasmin talk about the girls issues.....which is not suitable to tell....to u all....hihi!!! during the assembly.....tat bat po, ah ling ask me who is that "she" in my blog.....of course...as i aredi use "she" as the symbol....i surely won't tell de la.....so i ask her to guess lo....I wonder why everyone that read my blog oso think that "she" is tat swet yee ke??? i honestly tell u la...ah ling that person is.....actually......not swet yee but another person in my school....if u can guess correctly....i will giv u a treat....wakakaka!!! I oso wonder wat had happened to tat hui xin.....injuries here n there....so cham la....must be very painful...err!!! Then.....we hav class as usual la....during de maths period....we go for eyes testing......n the most terrible moment came.......as soon as the bell rang.....!!!!!!we all gathered at the lobby....."masuk baris" lo.....she ask man heng n how lai......to check the full-u.......Did she ever remember tat i am oso de pengawai disiplin...??? But everytimes.....she oli will call man heng....to check de full-u....sometimes me myself oso dun noe whether i am de AJK or not???!!! After that......how lai ask chun hung n wai chun.....go out to be "hukum". chun hung ask wat's wrong wif him...?? before that how lai oso ask me to cum out.....then how lai said tat we both din wear de "pangkat" badge...we both not satisfied....cuz ai nee n man heng oso din wear....so if want to punish both of us....u must oso punish ai nee n man heng too.....i was very angry tat time....i am not satisfied wif everything.....then how lai ask me to cool down....but i can't....!! later how lai came n said tat we wait until friday first....wait for darren to punish us....! what the fuck!!! i really wan to explode de la.....then we started to march lo.. me feeling very not "shuang"....so....pretend to be cool.....but unluckily.....swet yee made me wan to laugh as i see sth weird from her....later i dun noe y...? man heng ask all of us to go to the "tapak bola keranjang" to march.......then march la....me aredi cool down ge la....but when i see her....i will feel tension......after marching for sum time.....we then gathered at the lobby....cuz ai nee wan to announce sth lo...she juz say tat 2molo....after school...gt marching practise n friday got mkp meeting wo....so hateful la...meeting this...meeting tat........!!! that moment.....i dun noe wat happen 2 myself but i juz wanna to hand out that resignation letter as soon as possible...so after we all dismiss......i giv her tat letter......but i noe....trouble will soon coming to me.....watever la....cuz i really dun wan to be any AJK or watever APL la....no meaning....."tak ada maknanya"......ok....i think i hav really cool down ke la.....n i think i won't regret on wat i did tis afternoon.....when i went home..........after having my bath....."He" sms me again but now i din feel scared about "him" la...cuz we are juz frenz........when i think about the first time "he" sms me....i feel so scary la....but lately i feel better now.........but somehow....i really worried that i hav to wait for few months oli i can resign.....i wan 2 stop immediately ......STOP EVERYTHING!!!!ok la.....i should go for a shower to calm myself......wakakaka
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1:16 PM
Posted by imkenix
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2:30 PM
Oo.....i am so frusfrated now......I am thinking whether i should really giv her that letter.... yesterday before....i sleep.....i hav aredi made up my mind tat is i would like to resign from the post that i am having in the scout......i hav think for a very long time n finally i came up with de letter.......but i am scared of many things....example.....i scared that de pemimpin won't let me go for exam......n oso gathering.....if like tis for wat i attend the scout....right??? Why i can't juz do it according to my feelings....but i really scared i will regret.....la...and i oso dun noe....wat is the most suitable time for me to resign......n if i resign....dun i hav to wait for 3 months notice....i hope there is no necessity la.....lazy la.....wanna to be free as soon as possible....today i really feel no mood after recess.....because i din see "her" around.....where hav "she" been......wanna see "her" oso cannot la.....haiz....... furthermore.....i am very frusfrated about de color of our class t-shirt.....why ppl like to choose tis n tat de??? We hav discuss for quite a long time n finally today....we hav the conclusion....the color that we choose are black n apple green...ok la...i quite like tat color de....!!! Really thanks to my son....man heng la....he see me so "fan" n he ask me wat's wrong with me.....n i tell him that i am quite "fan" wif the color of de t-shirt.....n finally he help me to ask de class to decide de color.........once again i miss my add maths tuition.....but never mind....i will go on friday...n i think i will go to the sunday class for my account......cuz saturday...surely not free de .....cuz got walk-a-hunt.......why my time so packed de......?? wat a tiring life.....i hav!!!! Tis cuming holiday.....i wanna go sumwhere else.........to relax......hope can go.....without any "halangan" le..........ok la...........i oso dun noe wat to say le.............but conclusion of today is ............i am very "bimbang abt her" la.........hihihihihi...dun noe wat i write la..........???!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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1:30 PM
You've got an awful thinking on your mind right now -- but so does everyone else! You may need to step back and let people go through their own business; save your thoughts and opinions for a later time.
Wow....so accurate la....tis horoscope reading....!!! i really got an awful thinking on my mind right now.......but i dun noe whether others are oso same like me or not.. As i am quite a stubborn person.....i dun noe how to step back...really can help with my bad characteristic.... today have been a sad day for me......
Today......i sleep until 10.30am oli wake up....so tired la.....after tat...have "pan mee" as my breakfast....so yummy la... then i juz walking around de house lo...doing nothing la...see having a such boring day....then at 1.30pm.....my mum cum home n fetch me n my brother to my grandma's house....having lunch lo...but i din eat a lot cuz no appetite....then go tuition lo......today got exam la.....but i cannot finish all de questions....so sad la....
after tuition....i went home lo.....i go to my mum's room....i sleep on the bed.....i start to think about many things.....such as the scout n others school de things...n something that i hope to do....but my mum din support me oso....i am so heart broken .......sob.... i started ...................................................to.........................tears started to roll to my cheek........yes i am crying..........i dun noe why suddenly i will cry de....then ran back to my room to cry " sepuas-puasnya".......after crying for almost an hour.....my emotion....become stable....back.....but still feel really sad........why my mum like to babble.....then.....later my mum n my brothers went to my grandma's house to have dinner...but i din go.....cuz no mood la...........actually tis is not de first time ......i cried for no reason.........i always like tis de.....me really sot sot de....hahaha
then on9 lo..........go friendster...msn...n oso find the info about great wall of china....n oso de leaning tower of pisa......but suddenly no internet de line......haiz................so frustrated la.......wan go on9 oso cannot de......y like tis de my life so unlucky......every times oso like tis de...i wan on9 oso cannot........ok lo...then i wait........for so long....juz like ages....at last can on9 back lo....but all my friends oso left aredi...........then off9 lo.....cuz very late aredi.....suddenly......i think about the "sin chew" carnival........i wonder wat will happen in tat carnival.......cuz i am not helping in de carnival..................i am going to enter the "walk a hunt" competition...........i am so tired right now...............ok la......i think it's all for now...................i wan turn off de computer aredi la......i hope that i will have a happy day 2molo le............no mood liao....le
u all sure very boring....rite.....reading my blog......cuz everyday de content oso almost de same de.............me oso dun wan de....but wat can i do.....??? i am tat type of person ma...........BORING gurl.............haiz.............
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Posted by imkenix
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2:59 PM
Almost forgot liao today is the summer concert of 8tv.......at last it was held in ipoh....but i din go cuz i dun like lo....house so comfortable....why wan go there wo???? today hav been a very boring day for me...i considered la....
today i got school replacement...but many of my classmates oso din cum.....so bored la...if i noe so many ppl oso din cum....i oso dun wan attend skul 2day la....better sleep at my house......yesterday almost 3 oli sleep la...very "fan" la tis few days.....dun noe why.....but of course..i hav 2 attend skul cuz my mum won't let me "ponteng" de...very "cham" la......go to skul 2day....we r being forced to draw poster of the independence's day celebration.......me myself noe la....that i am bad in drawing..if u ask me to draw...it's juz like calling me to die la.......but luckily....lik wak help me to draw most of the drawing...hehe...i juz do the coloring part oli...after that.....i n my 2 little sister go to geography room to find puan leong lo.....lepak at there oli la....luckily i got the 2 little sis who accompany me....if not i sure will die of being so boring....at skul le....i giv a ride to kar mun n we went to oi kei's house....we chit chat la....they two very funny la....no wonder so many ppl like them la....hehe!!!!!
then i go home at about 1.20pm cuz got tuition ma....long time din go for zaitun de tuition.....cuz of de scout activities la....i hope that those scout de activities won't make me miss my tuition again la...........but i think i sure will miss my tuition as our troop is going to held a modern cooking competition in september 15....n there is oso a.......wat carnival....forget liao wat name le.. but i got take part in the "walk a hunt"...hope can win le....but still one week to go la...but i aredi "tak sabar" liao.....after tuition.......go n watch movie....until i feel so sleepy n i go to sleep liao lo....
very "geram" la.....ppl release my aeroplane....le that sam sam la.....promise wan 2 go to lik wak's house but at last.....say dun wan go liao le ..........so hateful la...tis sam sam.....bad gurl...!!!!
juz on time.....luckily i din sleep until i miss the summer concert....although i din like tis years de summer concert....i still wan 2 watch if not my friends n i din got topic to talk about lo........but actually i really din watch de cuz buzy chatting with my friends on msn lo.....hehe....chat with huey min....yuges...yugathes...n hui qing too.....hav a lot of fun la...chatting v them....while chatting v them....i hav to look for sum information......to do the english ULBS.....so "cham"...ar!!!!!! until now still cannot find de suitable information la.....haizzzzzzzzz........
i really wan to do how is my personalities.......towards my friends.....! tis few days....i am thinking about these things lo.....really make me feel very "fan" la.....Am i juz like a "wood"....do my friends feel boring hanging out v me........WHY i so CARE how ppl think about me??? but i reallly CARE la...how ppl xpecially my friends think about me......!!!! i always scared that i ll lost face in front of my frenz de......i cannot face.....failure de la..........
"In order to succeed, your desire for succeed should be greater than your fear of failure"......tis word by billy ....... is really meaningful 4 me...it is juz like a "pendorong" for me to put aside de fear of failure...in order for me to succeed in my life............
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Posted by imkenix
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2:57 PM
hA!Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz................wat la tat yoke ling so 8 de.... she go n tell hui xin wat i write until tat hui xin cum n scold me (no la where gt scold juz say say oli la)...never mind la.....but i wan to thank yoke ling jie jie cuz go n promote my blog....gud lo...so that ppl can know wat mei yee think about......i really have no idea of wat i wan to write 2day....cuz 2day ....many things happen around me.....but sum...i really can't write it out.....today is juz an unluckily day for me......Why i say so.....cuz 2day wake up late jo.....7.10 oli wake up.....then quickly prepare myself n rushed to skul lo....luckily i din "lewat" to skul la...if not i am really in trouble lo..!!! Then i settle down lo.....juz b4 de assembly started.....my dear...hu do u think cum over to my friends n i..??? sure lo....is ai nee la....if not hu else....!!! acTually nothing special....she juz ask us to stay back after skul.....then we started our boring de assembly....while those form 3 students...will be having their trial....last day lo...i think those form 3 de students must be very happy lo.....cuz when i was in form 3 that time....me so overjoyed after my trial finish.....but then of course feel sad la cuz de result no gud...but as i remember......i get 6As n a C in my trial la.....C for my geography lo....quite boring cuz after physics...n bm...we all go to the computer lab...really bad luck la....the computer that i hav chosen....cannot access to the internet de....so i can juz do my account de homework lo.....i hav think for a long time.....cuz i do not noe how to do the question 4 n 5.....so after i hav done my duty in de library....i go downstairs n ask mun s'ng n mun jee....but both of them oso forget liao how to do....then i ask hui xin lo....she oso de same.....forget liao how 2 do...how can like tis de...???? But anyway thanks for teaching although u all can't help....then dunno why....i can solve de question liao....hihi...so weird la!!!! Oooo.......excited moment is cuming when the bell rang at 12.15pm.....we all gathered at the lobby n then we go out to the assembly ground....n started marching....."kiri....kiri....kiri....kanan.....kiri....." tat's all we r doing.....quite bored...but i still enjoy it cuz long time din march lo.....miss my old times again la.....so "memalukan" when i see those form 1 de st.john oso can march better than us.....so shame la....then at 1.10 sumthing......i went home cuz have to rush to tuition....so exhausted la.....i hate Friday.....so many tuition packed together....2.oopm until 6.00pm.....different places pulak tu........then go home home n on9 lo until 8.00 sumthing....sam sam cum n find me to go cc.....until i forget to wash de dishes....then when i reached home .....my mum started to scold me.....say that i am not responsible...n like to go out.....hanging around with my friends.....i feel that wat my mum scold me is really correct wo.....tis few days i oso .....cum out...lepak de... din do homeworks n oso housechores....!!!wat had happened to me??? last time....i'm not like tis de wo.....if i go out oso....i sure will finish all my housechores first.....n now i am so lazy la....homeworks din finish then copy ppl de xpecially my "lion" de homeworks lo...but i feel tat i am really not responsible...n oso dun not keep my promise...as i hav promise to myself tat i will finish my works without copying...but i can't do it........i really wonder where is that mei yee who r very hardworking n responsible had gone.......i hav to search back that mei yee......i cannot be like tis de wo..........MEI YEE...........where have u gone????? cum back plz...........
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Posted by imkenix
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1:11 PM
Today in skul....it's juz very boring.......Why i will boring? mayb cuz 2day many of my friends oso...absense....Wonder wat r they doing when i was studying? I feel that life is really meaningless.....for wat....we r studying so hard....with so much burden........i feel so suffer......i juz thought of giving up everything in my life.........i was very tired everyday.....this few days, i dun noe wat had happened to myself.....i like to sleep during class......mayb cuz i sleep very late le..recently...cuz i think about many nonsense de things.....Now....i attend my account tuition.....i oso will feel sleepy de...WHY? WAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME? I HAVE TO STOP TIS NONSENSE!!!!!At night.....i on9 to find sum sources to make my power point presentation de things.....As usual la....i will open my friendster n oso my msn....cuz wanna chat v friends ma......then i saw hui xin on9 wo.....so i chat with her lo.......in the same time i oso chat with emily n oso yuges.....hui xin n i talk about nonsense la....then i ask her lo...why she is so fierce de wo...then she tell me....that's the real hui xin...she say that she dun like to pretend to be cute or watever la....then i am so curious to noe how ppl think about my personalities.....so i ask her lo wat she thinks about my personalities.....her ans really made me feel so surprise.....she say tat i am a friendly person.....wakakaka!!!! me......FRIENDLY!!!!!......tat must be a joke....but as she says that i am friendly...then mayb la..To me......my personalities are.......i am not confident in watever i did.....i am scared that i will lost face la.........i din dare to know new friends....cuz i dun noe how to communicate with ppl........n i scared they dun wan 2 be my friends....then i will feel so "fish" la....Am i fierce??? Am i talkative?? i am lazy lo......i am tat type of ppl who juz can guide ppl but if me myself do tat stuff....surely fail de........who can tell me wat my real personalities are????????? Cuz myself.....cannot see the real personalities of me myself.....but sometimes i oso cannot differentiate which is the true meiyee....???
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Posted by imkenix
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2:41 PM
Wow!!! Today....is a quite happy day for me cuz nothing to say about the scouting things!!! Today sum of my friends and i participate in the patriotic singing competition......and we hav..............WON in that competition without any competitors...cuz the other class hav giv up...sure la...ur class so "keng"......so they scared aredi....but we hav to perform again on the 30th August......so lazy la ....win aredi still got to perform!!!!haizzzzzzzz.....! Today at tuition.....feel so sleepy....din listen to my ah sir oso.....luckily after i washed my face i din feel so sleepy la.....still can listen a little bit....but i am very blur la about tis topic "HEAT"......wanna get mad ge le!!!! aT night......sam sam, wilson, ivis, carrot, stephanie and me.....almost forget my son, chun chun went to MM....we chat-chat lo.....after that we all go to CC.....me help them lo.....to make accounts.....and blog oso......wonder when i can see their blogs?????? But something very weird la.....cuz i aredi help sam sam to make a friendster account.....and ivis oso add her de le ma....but juz now i check her account....the friendster state that her account din not exist wo???? So weird la!!!!! ok la......actually nothing special to say la......wanna stop la......cuz i wanna finish up my tuition de homework.........gud night....!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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1:45 PM
I am sorry to my blog....cuz aredi 2days din post any blog.....cuz i am really buzy... Yesterday is my friend de bufday...my friends and i go celebrate with him...hav a lotz of fun...maybe because yesterday....watch tv until 1am...i feel so sleepy 2day.....i sleep during my maths period...cuz we all at the "bilik media"....very comfortable...got air-con and that room is very dark de..that's why i feel so sleepy...the teacher then cum n wake me up...but i still continue my sleep...after that period, we go back to our class until 2.30pm...skul finish...but still cannot go home la...Poor...mei yee...hav to march...after that got "MKP" meeting.....at about 3.30pm...i oli reach back to my house...after having my lunch...i rest for a while..then went to my mum's room to take a nap..but actually not a nap...i sleep until i miss my history tuition again....i always miss my tuition de lo.....i wish i got go tuition 2day la....i juz wake up....when wai sam sms me to call me to go to her house to check his computer....i am so sorry la cuz cannot help her to fix her computer cuz i juz know use the software but i din know how to fix a computer la.....then i do my homework after i take my bath and hav my dinner....i juz now oli finish doing my chemistry notes.....now it's aredi 11.00pm....i hav discovered that my lifestyle is very boring....xpecially 2day.....like this i hav wasted my 23hours doing nothing......WHY my LIFE so BORED de??????? At last there is one day.....that i didn't mention any scouting activities in my blog.....! That picture very nice le! he is the founder of scout...he is LOrd Baden poWell.....
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Posted by imkenix
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2:42 PM
Today have been a busy day to me.......In the morning as early as 6.00am...i woke up and prepare myself cuz today is the merdeka run......What a bullshit my friends are....as we have discussed to go to have breakfast at ghany at 6.45am...but when i reach there....nobody is at there which i mean my friends la...then i have to go home lo....after that ..wilson called me...and i went to his house n find him to gather at the "dataran kampar"...when we reach there....i saw ivis and pik qi having their breakfast....i hate ppl who always broke their promise n din not keep on time......At about 8.15am, we started our run.....me as usually dun prefer running...thus i juz walk lo..n when my friends ask me to run...then oli i will run de lo.... i am so satisfied with myself about the running things....cuz i finally got a certificate that about sport de.....so happy....But i am really in a hurry.....as i got "masakan rimba" competition at the complex n we all have to gather at there at 10.00am....but when wilson and me reach there.....many ppl oso not yet come.....so angry la...cuz not on time again.....thus de competition have delay for a hour that's means it started at 11.00am....that time de weather really hot la...i sweat a lot la.....finally the winner of the day...is announced....and emily's patrol has won de champion....but i see ai nee ad shok yien were very mad about the results....they find it so unfair.....but to me it's nothing as we have try ur best aredi le ma.....we juz go there to get more experience and the winning things is juz a reward.....but never mind la....ur troop win wo....should be happy la right....dun noe la wat they think about...!!!????
Then at night....at 6.30pm....my mum, stephanie, sam sam, wilson and me went to KTAR as we all want to watch the KTAR orientation night.....during the programme.....i enjoy the break dance a lot.....very cool la....then the finalist oso very "leng zai" and "leng lui" de....i found out that M2 is very handsome n cute la......hihi.......AT last M4 and F4 won the title of mr and ms tarcian.....they oso won the best couple award....enjoy the performance but seem like tis year de orientation night isn't that's fun....i really miss those time de orientation night as the mc are really funny de...and their eng are much more better....maybe sum days in de future.....i oso got chance to take part in the orientation la....mayb as a mc oso gud la.......After that.......my mum drive us home....we all cycle to "Maha Maju"....to yum cha la....then we talk about ai nee....she seem very very bad la......she "telah menyalahgunakan kuasanya"...i found out that many of her friends oso dun like her de.....so sad la...wat to do....Nothing la....right.....i think it's all for 2day blog.....i wanna get enough sleep as tomorrow...we go to the temple to get rewards....so excited la...cuz got money ma.....wakakaka...................
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Posted by imkenix
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2:59 AM
I am so tired right now but i still cannot sleep as i am waiting for ai nee to pass me the coconut shells to be cleaned.......I suppose to sleep now since tomorrow i got take part in the merdeka run.....i should have enough sleep......Juz now i and the other scouts who are taking part in the "masakan rimba" contest were gathered at mr leong's house.....There, i learned how to make spoon and fork out of "buluh"....it's s so interesting la.....i am so enjoy making those utensils.....It have been ages....i have not learned something new since hing wai left us.....Today after school.....i saw those form 1 de st.john are trained by their senior.......i remember that time when i first join the scout.....with pei shin and mabel.....but finally both of them left scout already and joining the gurl guide......juz left me behind....I really really miss that time.....i juz wanna go back when i was in form 1....when i was juz a little gurl (can be considered la).....wat oso dunnoe de little girl.....after tonight.....i have made up my mind......i would like to resign from my post.......and i think i will hand the letter to wilson after the competition and after i have discussed with puan lee...I really dun wan to get involve in SCOUT anymore....When i refresh back my memories....juz now me, wilson and emily go to buy something....when we go to mr leong's house that time.....i got talk about my wish to resign..... then i remembered wilson got say we juz do our part and we juz enjoy the moment with our friends....tis is wat i get from wat he say.......yup... i think most of you are thinking juz like him....appreciate the friendship....but if wilson got read tis....i wan to tell him that....."I din find any friends in scout.....i noe u and emily are very close friend.....but until tis moment i can't even find a trusted friend in my life.....so i think i dun need to appreciate everyone of you..especially scout...." For me.....in scout oli will make me feel angry with my friends....thus i dun wan to talk about SCOUT with my friends" I hope wilson dun always talk de SCOUT things in front of me.....i will feel very tension oli.......although in the past i really enjoy it....OK la....i actually dun like talking about SCOUT stuff but recently many things about scout is happening around me....I feel so tired......OMG.....it's almost 12.58am lo......i will continue my blog tomorrow...i hope tomorrow i can write something happy de la....coz every day de blog oso so sad de.....GAMBATEH KENIX!!! hope my team can win la in de competition 2moro...AR..................rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..........2moro have to wake up early cuz promise liao wan 2 go eat breakfast de.........ok la i really wan to stop lo...i wan to have a bath then i wan to sleep....i sleep not because i wan to hide myself...i sleep juz to prepare myself so that i can walk further.....!!!!
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Posted by imkenix
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1:26 PM
Oo.....dun be surprise of wat i write!!! I am so angry right now that i dun have other words to describe my feelings right now.......FUCK! Why i am so angry le??? Actually me today is in a very gud mood cuz today i have done my oral test for bahasa melayu and i get full marks of it. Moreover today....there are not so much homework so i think i can relax a bit after my account tuition....but suddenly i saw a message in my phone...OMG! the msg is from ai nee! so i think that's not a gud news....She called for an urgent meeting....Ok lo...i go for the meeting. After the meeting....my anger can't be control anymore.....i juz wanna to release all my anger....but i keep myself under control....So now i use blogging as the way to express all my feeling about tat particular "meeting". I am being forced to take part in the "masakan rimba" contest.......Why she wan us to take part? why she dun ask de member to take part...???? why? why? why? see i gonna crazy!!!! ok....i think i dun wan take part de la.....but when i went home......i saw her msg again...she ask me to join her group.....i noe that she as the KK oso "very tired" but me juz a "fei cai"....juz left me behind la...less me one person won't affect anything de la........I am very very very TIRED LA.........if she still force me to do things that i dun like......i think i have to use my last choice......which is sacrifice the post of the APL since i oso dun like to become a APL de la....I DUN WAN to be part of de MKP.......i wan to resign.......tomorrow i'll ask puan lee about the co-curriculum marks.....if it won't affect much of my marks....BUT if she still force me until i can't even breathe.....i will not juz resign of the post.....i will resign from the SCOUT oso.......For wat doing sumthing that u dun like to do.....there is no point doing sumthing that is not making u happy......u'll feel very suffering......that wat i feel now......Actually the main reason that i dun wan to take part is that i will surely feel very tired after the running....U think i still gt so much energy to cycle from TBB to the Kompleks Sukan.....and the other reasons is i dun wan to miss my tuition anymore.....i dun care la if ai nee and the others are so willing to go as they r so bright students.....me not same....i can't miss for tuition anymore.....i wan to study well.....i dun wan to disappointed my parents who are so tired working to earn money for me to study not for me to join a competition to buy chicks and fish......so like cooking....go home and help ur mother to cook la.....take part in such a competition for wat!!!!! Despress!!!!! i think i should go to see the caunselor so that she can help me.... I dun wat to talk about it anymore......i dun wanna to take part.....KILL me la.......than forcing me doing the things i dun prefer......i am totally disappointed now!!!! NO MORE SCOUT and CO-CURRICULUM
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Posted by imkenix
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1:45 PM
Oo.....i am going to be crazy coz i hav waited for half a day....until i can post tis blog.....this is bcoz the line of the internet isn't that gud tis few days...........Actually........since we have chosen the next year commitee for the scout.....i isn't that happy coz i din get a gud post.......but never mind la.......at least a discipline master (pengawai disiplin)..is consider ok la... but tis few days...i am wondering whether i am one of the commitee or not...? Am i de pengawai disiplin? Somehow i think i'm not the discipline master as everything about discipline..is juz none of my business.....i'm totally disappointed with the scout....I dun like to march.............i dun wan join the meeting.................i dun wan to involved in the SCOUT anymore.....there are no sweet memory for me anymore in SCOUT since hing wai left.........I am very tired la......i wan to stop....i wanna to stop every single activities that all about scout....But i din dare......coz i scared that tis will affect my Co-curriculum.... Why can't they giv me some times for me to relax and i juz wanna to concentrate in my studies? Oooooo............wat should i do? Should i stop? This is all the questions that will always come to my mind.......Oo....my jesus.........can u plz give me sum guidance on wat should i do? Moreover, nowadays.....scout is juz like a burden to me.....not like in the past....that time i really enjoy doing the scout activities although we march under the hot sun....we never complain....I really hope that i can go back when i was in form 1....when i was only a member "zai".....Miss tat time a lot...........!!!! Now i feel very tension when wilson ask me whether i wanna go for the JD exam.......i really wanna to go but for wat i go now??? i dun think that i still got time for me to take the king scout's exam......Ooo......i dun wanna to think about scout now....!!!! Coz it'll make me get headache!!!! my head juz like wan to explode lo......so painful....Ok la, i think that's all for today la......may GOD bless me!!!!! Gud Luck to myself.............la
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