Yesterday, I went to extract two of my teeth in order to carry out orthodontic treatment....
Oh, my poor little teeth were being extract using all the scary and horror apparatus...

Wow, that's really painful but all that pain haven't finished yet as I still need to extract two more teeth and then I will carry out the orthodontic treatment... PAIN but I must stand all those pain...

Beauty really need sacrifice...
As I want to have a more "teratur" the teeth and also to have a greater smile, I need to stand all the pain that come during this treatment...
Moreover, I also need to sacrifice all my favourite food as during the treatment I can't eat many type of food...
Haiz, what to do arr?? As the elders always say "要美就不要命"...something like this la....
After I extract the two teeth, I keep on feeling sick and I seem have a bit fever and till now the area where my teeth have been extract is still very painful and a bit swollen!!!


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哈哈。。。休息了三天，我终于恢复正常了。
在这几天内，我收到很多我的营员们的短信。。。真的非常感动哦！
应为他们都很想念我们这班哥哥和姐姐哦。。。

刚才我收到奇胜的电话，感觉非常奇怪哦！没想到他会打电话给我咯！
真的很想念他们这班小朋友啊。。。
很想回去找他们，但是在他们的儿童节那天， 我有课哦。。。我不想 skip class 哦
不知道 what to do?? But one thing for sure is that I really miss them!!!
Wish they can pass the photos to me as soon as possible...so that I can see their faces again...
Once I get the photos, I'll post one more blog on my experiences during 下乡。。。异人一梦培训营!!!


马可尼组的副督导，美仪 signing out @ 9.10pm

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终于下完乡了。。。
Let's write back in english...

Finally my mission....NO!NO!NO!....should be our 36 members' mission is finally accomplished. Our 下乡mission is considered quite successful oh....This feeling of happiness is so great... which remind me about those camp which I attended with my friends during my secondary time...!!! Haha.

I really miss my group members very much...I mean the children arr...
especially 勇辉 and 奇胜...they are so cute!!
But my 义弟义妹 not very familiar with me... being children are really 幸福哦....
This three days with them are really memorable lo.... hope can see them again!!!
Haha... Hope you all will success in your future.... Please don't forget me arr!!!

In my blog here... I want to thanks all the other 35 members of 下乡社区服务团...
Thanks for not 放弃 me....
I know that I give you all my problems and I don't know Chinese well...which I really can't understand you all sometime...
Not forget to thanks my 宣传股 members... as my arts is not good, I can't contribute my ideas to you all....so sorry arr...

Once again...I wish we all will continue our 下乡spirit la...
下乡gambateh...下乡gambateh...Oh~ GAMBATEH!!!!


下完乡的美仪
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Hmm... finally here it comes!
Do you know what I mean?? The time that I have been waiting for... exam's moments!!!

Exam is something that I am longing for (haha...seem like I love exam) but I do not mean that I love exam. What I mean is after exam, I'll be having a break. But of course...this semester, I don't have any break as I'll have my 下乡activities which I seriously not so prefer.
I can't understand why their time is so flexible. Once they call for meeting, everyone must present. Actually I do understand that they also need to have exam...but as a scholarship holder...I am not going to do it with them this time... So sorry but I am really not feeling so well...

Omg...my "Hubungan Etnik" will be ruined. As my coursework for this subject is only 71/100 and the coursework carry 60% from the final... I can't get A for this stupid subject ge lo...
Feeling so nervous that I'll lost my scholarship...


signing out by boring kenix @ 5.20pm (我爱你）haha!!

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Hmm....Recently, a lot of things happened around me which I would like to post on my blog but I am now so lazy to post all of them. So, I am just going to post a few important things that have happened on me this few weeks. Just a summary la...

Firstly, I have finally managed to bought one personal notebook for myself. That notebook is really nice and I like it very much.

Secondly, this few weeks are really busy as the few weeks are the deadline for my assignments and also for the test. Omg...I did very badly in my QS and Accounting but luckily my Accounting test is quite good la...but my QS.... Huh, don't want mention already cause it is all my fault, never study for the test.

Thirdly, 下乡真的很忙。我们的宣传股真的很忙啊。That's all the Chinese words for today. Let's continue... we have to prepare all the posters, camp t-shirt design and also the 书签 to let the seniors see and see whether they approve or not and last Wednesday, our whole group have worked overnight to rush the three posters... Damn tired that day until I have no 精神 to attend my Microeconomics Tutorial class.

At last but not least, my final is around the corner!! I am so scared now...I must work hard in order to maintain my scholarship... Huh, so stress la....

Haha!! Forget to tell something la...
I am going to "ikat" my teeth soon...probably la...if nothing happens
and my cousin brother's daughter was born yesterday... She is so very cute!!!


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This few days I really feel depressed and frustrated... always form group with that three people only...want to make new friends also cannot... As I already know, once I choose the wrong gang of people...then "hancurlah" my life!!! My HE assignment only get 23 marks out of 30 marks... and the more worse in my HE test... Haha...as I already know...sure "hancur" one... I get 22 out of 40. Teruknya!! I also have calculated on my coursework marks for HE...and if not wrong, I need to do very well in the Exam in order to get a "A" which I think it is IMPOSSIBLE!!! Haha...and yesterday, I just done my HE presentation...hmm, actually not too satisfied with the marks but...just accepted it lo....what to do??

I always thinking about the same thing throughout the week... SHOULD I CONTINUE MYSELF IN CS??? Huh, as I am not good in my Chinese... I feel that myself very useless and I started to feel "自卑" as I seemed can't contribute anything to the society and I keep on asking on my senior...what sports is the most easy to get the 2 credit hours?? I keep on finding ways to "escape" from CS. But by the way, I really like CS very much. Just because I can't speak fluently in Chinese, sometimes I just dare not voice up my opinions... as I don't how to tell some words in Mandarin. Haiz...what to do?? Who ask me don't know Chinese??

I keep on telling myself that I can do it. But eventually I can't do anything. I keep on struggling on what decision should I make.... I even asked my best friends' advice. Two of them ask me to quit as it seemed to be a burden to me... but my dear, Pei Shin give me opinion to me that I should give a try and try to manage both my study and co-q.... But the things I most worry about is that I scared I will lose my scholarship... I scared I can't do well in my study if I enter CS as this society is a damn busy society in the entire college... Haha!!! I also don't understand why I will enter this society at first...

Haha...today feel extremely sad...and my friends keep on asking me why I look like a corpse and walk like a corpse!! Sure like a corpse la...a lot of tension ma!! Tests, assignments, exam and CS!!! I feel that I can't manage all of them at the same time...and this week I really cried a lot. What to do... except release all my sadness through the tears that rolling down to my cheeks?? I even think of "放弃" but I really cannot give up this opportunity as I really lucky to be the chosen one...haha!! I even think of not attending the meeting for today but... I keep on telling myself to keep on trying!! I struggle for a long time and I finally end up with a conclusion which is continue myself in CS.

My mom told me that if I already worked hard...if the scholarship is really forgone, then also nothing can be done except that I need to pay my own money lol...but I think I will still got some discount geh...haha!! Staff rate!! So, what Kenix should do is try my best to get a "A" for every unit but I really know that it is a "MISSION IMPOSSIBLE"... so just try my best not to fail a single unit lo...then I think this mission, I can still handle geh!!! Tomorrow got QS test arr... very scare but I just can do one thing which is try my best... just try to pass!!!

Haha...tomorrow night is the O'Night but I won't go as a student but as a staff's daughter and thus I don't need to very dinner dress...HAHA!!! Kenix...gambateh and 下乡 gambateh!! Hope that I can really manage both of them la... GOD BLESS!!! Good night!!! Wakaka...


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Oh...my whole body is so painful!!! "Lebam" here and "luka" there... so bad oo
Actually this weekend I have a CS Training Camp at college...and the camp just ended at 10pm...
I learn quite a lot from this camp but le... I don't know whether my "semangat" can stay for how long... Now I will write back what had happened during this three days!!!


10 July 2009, Friday

Today is my first day in CS Training Camp. Firstly, I sure feel nervous lo. Keep on checking whether I have forgotten to bring anything. And as usual, as I am not good in my Mandarin, I don't like to speak much...as every word I say I need to translate it in my brain from Cantonese to Mandarin but sometimes I'll translate the word wrongly and I'll feel 尴尬. The activities for that day are really fun. And we are having a activity called "小主人 and 小天使". Our group GF, Penny and AGF, Jen Li are really cool. Feel so happy to make friends with them( my group member). Then we sing our NegaraKu and read "ikrar". Then the rest of the days also play games...we went home at 10pm...feel so hungry at that time cause I haven't take my dinner...To be continued.............


11 July 2009, Saturday

Today we draw our group flag and create our group slogan and song. Our group name is...幸运四叶草!!! Then we have a game and in that game, I learn the importance to trust the people in our group. Then we also given a task to perform on Sunday where those Senior will act like "small children". After discussion, we decide to perform a dance!!! We have a sketch...have a lot of fun [^U^]... I discover that my 小主人 is my AGF, Jen Li and I get to know that my 小天使 is Khoo Sin Jia...haha!!! So coincidence both my 小主人 and 小天使 are in my group...hehehe
At night we have our 联欢晚会...though the food at GK is terrible but really have some fun la...hehe!! At last I saw her smile... congratulation 纪律 for getting second place for the best 笑容... After that, we go practise our dance "woosa woosa". So cham have to copy 20 times of the 宗旨. It is really a hard task for me...and finally I write till 4am


12 July 2009, Sunday

OMG...I almost last for the camp. Today in an activity we are required to dance 星星舞 with our eyes blindfolded. Huh, our group lost and we need to "tekan-tubi" 80 times...alamak sakitnya!!!
Then, here come the "children"!!! Wow, those Senior are very good in acting arr... But I as AGF really done a terrible job...I admit my weakness...I really want surrender le. These are not normal "children"... they are mad de!! So cham de 纪律... voice also "sa" liao...and she is one of the "children" damn crazy de... After that, we have some discussion on our job... Later we have our Station Games... So fun la... After having our dinner, we gathered at SAD hall again... We are taken to sit at a specific place where we told to close our eyes... Then something happened that make us cry lolz... so 感动... Senior, so sorry that we seem not appreciate you all... Sorry for not giving response to your questions... Sorry for not understanding your hard work and sorry for not respecting you all... sorry and thanks for all the hard work you all have given to us... haha!! Thanks Jen Li for your present... that monkey looks so cute la... hehe and hope Sin Jia will like my gift la... At last we dance for a while and take photograph and that's the end for our training camp!!! Gonna miss this camp very much... I really can survive in 下乡?? Hope I can "kekal" till the end la...
下乡 gambateh!!! Muackzz


That is the end of my blog about the Training Camp... Good Night!!!



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I am too bored...thus I just want to spend some time writing something on my blog. You see how free MeiYee is!!! hahaha

Before I start my blog today, I would like to thank my friends for their supporting words in msn. Thanks, my friends.

Hmm...I am getting worried and worried these days!!! My preparations for the presentation on Hubungan Etnik had not yet started. Now I worried that I don't have enough time to prepare and I think my points is not enough to be presented within 5 minutes. Moreover, tomorrow I'll be having my Hubungan Etnik test and on the day after it, I'll have my English's short conversation. I feel that all these things are too rush for me. I am very frustrated!!!

And my biggest problem is about the Community Sociology (CS). There'll be a training camp this coming Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I feel tension about the camp la.... And there is also a gathering on Saturday night at Grand Kampar Hotel. Firstly, I thought I don't want to go but then they say it is compulsary to go. So I think I just have to go though I really don't want to go. Aiyo...kenix!!! Don't regret la...just accept the fate!!! But I really want to know the reason why I was selected. My group leader, monkey so good also didn't pass the interview, why should I pass it le??? Confusing arr....

Haha...actually writing blog really can make me feel sleepy de wo...and I want to sleep now lolz!!!


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今天我很不开心。The reason I feel unhappy is my family is not supporting on me.

Hey, do you that I have a lot of stress these days?? I just want to express my unsatisfactory towards something. Why can't you just understand my conditions?? Always telling me that others didn't complain this and that while I always complaining everything. Hey, come on!! Why should others tell you their feelings...if they really have problems, they also won't tell you everything la...you are not their family.

Do you have ever supporting on my decision?? No!!! You didn't!!! Whenever I complain about my college life. You will always splashing me with cold water. You always say "You should study for Form Six. Then you can enter local university." But do you really understand what my wants are??? I don't like Form Six since I was in Form 4. I hate Form Six!!

Whatever I done is wrong. On the other hands, whatever both your son do is always right. They play the computer all days, you won't make a single noise but if I play the whole days, you will start scolding me. Even your son fails his Add Maths, you never ask him not to play the computer. He always msn with girls and you never scold him. This is really unfair.

I don't mind that you do not support on me. But please don't make me question on my decison that I have made. Oh, please la...KCL!! You only get ? marks for your Add Maths and you even XXXX 4 of your subjects in the MYT. You tries to make fun of me. Saying that if I am a lawyer, I will become 哑巴 when I see the judge. What about you?? You will piss in your pants when you see the judge la. What I hate the most is that you support your son and together making fun of me. I tell you, I HATE you!!! And I am warning you, KCL. You don't ever making fun of me anymore, you idiot buffalo!!! You think you are very smart, gah??? Please stop dreaming la!! I tell you, I won't let myself fail the exam geh!! I want to prove to you that among your children, I am the best. The ends.

Friend, thanks for your comment. About the interview that day, I think I had passed la...feel so surprised.


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Today's feeling : 今天我觉得很丢脸。

Wow, it had been a long time I didn't post any blogs due to my busy college life. College's life is really tiring and not similar like secondary school. And of course, I always think that secondary school life is my best moments in life. I miss it a lot. But that had become the history of my life meaning that I won't have another secondary school life, so what I have to do now is concentrating on my studies in college and thinking about my future. And just try to forget the past.

But recently, I always thinks whether I have made a correct choice to study at TAR College. Many people keep asking me the same question. Guess what is the question?? The question is "Hah, you are studying at TAR College?? How many As you get?? Why don't you study Form 6?? Why don't you go for a better college or university??" All these questions are making me crazy. Am I picking the right choice??? No, I don't know! I know I shouldn't think of all these anymore but I have some regret feeling in my heart now and making me feeling sad all days.

As in my college life, we must have 2 credit hours in order to pass the co-curriculum unit. And what I have done to ensure that I can get the 2 credit hours, I make up my mind to enter 下乡服务团. As I am a non-mandarin student, I am having difficulties in speaking that language fluently. I undergoes the first interview and I managed to pass it... but today or maybe just now, I just have another interview but I think I'll fail this time. My mandarin is so 乱七八糟 and I think they won't let me pass one. I feel so 丢脸 about the interview just now. I campur all my languages like a bowl of rojak and I really don't know whether they can get what I say.

Nowadays, only left me alone. All of them are leaving one by one. Lee Teck had gone to UNITEN on last Friday/Saturday and Mabel also had gone to KL this morning. By the way, Yugathes will be leaving us too in the next 2 weeks. Meaning that all the 5 Science 1 's students had gone to somewhere else, except me and those who are doing their STPM.

Huh, it's very late now and I should go to bed right away. Tomorrow still have 3 Tutorial Class and I haven't started on my QS questions. OMG, what a busy week this is!!!
This week will have QS test and then next week will have Accounting test and also Hubungan Etnik test... tiring!!! Assignments and presentations are all coming together in Week 6 & 7.


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You were born on 19th day of March 1991, Tuesday.

Your Life : You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you gain respect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that you are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the wrong path. You are a free bird and want to lead your own life.

Your Love : You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love, nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon after that,you will make up in a way that surprises others.

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Yesterday I had done some quiz in Facebook. One of them is about "What is the theme song in your life?" Being curious of it, I had done the quiz and the result of the theme song in my life is "Learn to Fly by Foo Fighters". As I never heard of this song before, I try to search for this song in one of my music software. Despite finding this song from the above singer, I found "Learn to Fly by A1". I think this song is really suitable to be my theme song although this song is actually not the result of the quiz. I feel that the song lyrics really describe my feelings.

Let me share the lyrics with you all:

When you feel the dream is over

Feel the world is on your shoulders

And you lost the strength to carry on

Even though the walls may crumble

And you find you always stumble through

Remember never to surrender to the dark

Cuz if you turn another page

You will see that’s not the way

The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back

Feel you’re on the wrong track

Give it time, you’ll learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day

And you will find your own way

You’ll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you’ll learn to fly

In your head, so many questions

The truth is your possession

The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)

You will see the doors are open

If you only dare to hope

And you will find a way to fight

The fears that kept you down

Cuz if you turn another page

You will see that’s not the way

The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back

Feel you’re on the wrong track

Give it time, you’ll learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day

And you will find your own way

You’ll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you’ll learn to fly

Looking at your situation

There’s so much that you can do

Now’s the time to make your stand

This is just an observation

In the end it’s up to you

The future’s in your hands

And if you need to find a way back

Feel you’re on the wrong track

Give it time, you’ll learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day

And you will find your own way

You’ll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you’ll learn to fly

Give it time

Then you’ll learn to fly

Hmm, I love this song so much. Later I may post this song to my blog to let you all listen to it.


Today my friend, Chun Hung had come back from S'pore. Still feeling glad that he haven't forget us. Just now he just came to my house and we have so chit-chatting. Yoke Yin will be back on 19th June. Hope can see them all soon. Congratz to Yugathes as he will be further his studies at Australia after finish the SAM from Taylor. Wish him all the best!!! Friendship is always forever!!! After graduate, do forget me arr!!!


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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

This test is really true la...almost 95% accurate!!!


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This morning is our Talent Time performances...

I am extremely nervous this morning and I seemed to have forgotten all the dancing steps... OMG lol!!! But finally we have successfully performed the dance. Even though I have forgotten some dance steps in the middle of the performance.... Haiz!!! No talent really no talent.

All the other performance from other group is really entertained. Hmm, today is the most entertain day.... Huh, although our group doesn't win any prizes but I think no problem la as long as we feel happy!!!

This is the picture of all the members of Group 13... (some of them have gone back hometown ady)

And this is the picture of our group flag (nice mou)

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Today I didn’t go to college as I was so lazy to play all those station games…so bored and tiring!!!

Then at night, we have some dancing practice at Nerriza’s house again. Huh…although the dancing steps is not too difficult but it’s still a burden for me…. All these dancing practice reminded me of the dancing practice I have during I was in Form 2. Hing Wai asked me, Ai Nee, How Lai and Shok Yien to join a Dancing Competition during a gathering at St.Michael (if not mistaken). Huh… those time is so tiring as we practice almost every day!!!

We practice and practice until 1.40am. I know that my MOM is very worried about me… but I can’t just leave as we haven’t finish practice. Alamak… I think I have forgotten the steps lol…. Aiyoyo…my memories is really terrible la!!! Can’t remember anything geh…. Hoh!!! Feel so sleepy right now. Good night and wish I can remember the steps by tomorrow.


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Hmm…, I think today is better than yesterday. As today we were entertained with the performance by the societies and clubs.

Luckily Cu Van and Xiu Juan got come to college…so that I won’t feel so lonely. Today also, I was able to make a few friends. So sorry that I just remember two of their names, which is Ka Mun and Li Fang (just ignore the spelling)… and another girl if not mistaken is called “Kit Wen”.

Just have a lot of fun today!!! Then, at night, which is just now… we are drawing our flag and also planning on our dance movement at Nerriza’s house. Huh…feel so glad that Nerriza helps us to draw the flag!!! Then we (girls) paint the flag. But I am so sorry that I can’t help finish painting the flag…feel so sorry!!!

Haiz!!! Now I am having headache in choosing my Co-Curriculum…. What should I choose??? I actually want to join the Christian Fellowship but I’m not a Christian. Will that be a problem??? OMG!!! What societies or clubs should I join??? So ma fan la….

signing out @ 11.50pm by kenix

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Today is the beginning of another new chapter in my life where I started my new life as a college student at TAR College. It’s a totally different lifestyle I have never experienced before. Why I say so??? It’s because I started this whole new life all by myself. Now I am thinking about my friends… I miss them so much!!! I wish they can study with me but I know the wish will never come true.

Today when I reached the college main gate, I feel so nervous and strange of that place even though I have been there for many times already and I even worked at there before. This reminds me about my working experience as an Examination Attendant. After registered, I went to Auditorium to collect my t-shirt and a file. Huh…, the t-shirt is so large for me!!!

I was grouped into GROUP 13. After we introduced ourselves, we were told to think a slogan for our group. Haha… we don’t have to think of it as our AGF had think the slogan for us. The slogan sounds like this:
Group 13… we’re the best
Group 13… we beat the rest
Group 13… sakai sakai sakai all the way………
Ma Chi Ke Ni………

Hmm… I feel so glad that I can make some new friends today. They are Cu Van, Xiu Juan and Carmen. Three of them are really friendly and funny. After lunch, we have our Mass Call where we need to read our declaration. Then we have to listen to Dr.Choy’s talk. After the event, we were told that we will be having a “Talent Time” this coming Friday. As Nerriza (our group AGF) draws the number 1, we have to dance. OMG!!! Dancing? Dancing is my weak point…I can’t dance!!! Nerriza told us to think what dance to be performed but of course we can’t think of it la…

She told us if we can’t think of a dance, she will ask us to dance SAKAI dance as our group is the sakai group…. Wakakaka!!! So crazy!!! Huh, tomorrow will be a tough day for me as three of my new friends told me that they will not be coming tomorrow. Aiyo…, I will be lonely Kenix tomorrow!!! Never mind lolz…cause I already used to it. All I need to do is to wish myself “good luck”!!! [^O^]

signing out @ 11.33pm by kenix

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Today suppose to be a day to be remembered as I will be going back to school to take prize for SPM. This should be a happy day for all of us. But all this had turned into a DISASTER.

Today I went back to school at around 9.10am. I just wear a slack and a t-shirt with some words on it as I don’t have any other proper wear. I thought that as I was not wearing any jeans, I will be okay. But those blind people really can’t differentiate slack and jeans. But after I tell that what I am wearing is not jeans but slack, they have nothing to say and just say “Okay, you can go.” But once I turned and wanted to went upstairs…I was stopped again by -a---n. Can you guess what she says to me?? Oh... 我的天! She said that my t-shirt got the word “WHISKY”...and says “How come you wear a t-shirt like that in this kind of function?”

Oh, Madam...Whisky is just a normal word what... If I am wearing a shirt with the words like SEX or F--K, then you scold me la... I really can’t stand this school la... What the hell... I am so frustrated that time... Hey, come on!! Who will look so detail on my t-shirt? Then I said that my house is far away but they say I so smart in giving reasons. If I am not smart, I will not be here today. But they insisted that I go home and change my cloth. Okay, as Puan Leong advises me to go home and change, so I went home. But all my other t-shirt doesn’t suit with my slack. So after thinking for a while, I decided to wear my new skirt and long sleeve t-shirt. Oh my god, how come the teachers and those guests so troublesome ones! This time is even worse than the previous one. This time they say my skirt is short and my t-shirt is tight.

Crazy de meh?? My skirt is just 1cm above my knee. If this consider short, I really don’t know how to measure long? Hey, we’re young girls not “mak cik”! What they assume us to wear? My t-shirt is tight? I think that is not called tight but fit. Of course, when we buy t-shirt, we will choose the ones which fit us and not too loose. Is that right? I think if I really wear I loose t-shirt, they will complain that I look untidy. So I really don’t know what they want us to do?

This school no hope already ge la...Give people some reward also noisy here and there. Hey, give some face to us la, we just come back and take prize only what. Just tolerate a bit la. We’re no longer the student of this school, can’t they treat us as outsiders. Busybody only...why don’t they scold the parents who are not properly dressed?? Crazy de... I feel like crying...(my tears are falling down to my cheek) You won’t understand how I feel that time...so bad.

So disappointed that I can’t get my prize myself even though I wear so formal already. Hey, that is my office wear!! Not formal enough meh?? Haiz....really not in a good mood today!!!

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Huh!!! After two and a half months working at UTAR, I finally ended my contract yesterday which was earlier than my actual ones. But anyway...happy to be free again. Yeah...I can start planning what to do in the coming 3 weeks. Hmm... want to go for vacation but don't know whether success or not. Normally won't success one... Then I wish to dye my hair and straighten it too. Planning to do many things but my budget is not enough...Haiz!!! Still haven't get my salary yet. But one plan must be on...the plan to go Ipoh to buy my working shirt and shoes. Oh...still have to work in April but I be working at KTAR this time.

Yesterday have a lot of fun. Go out for a drink at Maha Maju with Lik Wak and others. Hmm...looks like Lik Wak was the earliest one who go study in our class. He'll be go to LimKokWing UC to study Interior Design. Hope he will be fine there...

As for me is just like what I had planned earlier which is going to KTAR to study Accounting. Hope this is the correct way for my future. Still have a bit worry about it. Aiyo...don't know what to write liao?? Feeling a bit sleepy... I think I should take a nap now. Sayonara...see you again my blog...XD


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Oh, I am so disappointed about my result!!!
I just get 8As...which consist of 6A1 and 2A2.....
Hmm...the rest better don't tell...because I feel so embarrasing!!!
I get B3 for my EST which I thought it was a mistake... I don't believe that I get a B for my EST...
And what is more terrible is my Physics and Biology... As a Science student, I really out of idea why am I getting such a bad result for both my Science subject... a B4 for physics and a C6 for biology....
I feel so sad when I saw my Biology result...
Now... I think I can't do anything!!!
But what I want to do now... is to check back my EST result... and just hope I an get can A back...
Now only I know... without an A... it is difficult to apply for any scholarship!!!
But I really want to congratulate all my friends who get an excellent result...
HAIZ!!!... I feel so shame to let people know about my result!!!
Anyway hope for the best!!!

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12/3/09. This date represents a very important day in my life. One week before my birthday and also the date that I will be getting my SPM result. Hmm... a bit nervous!!! I don't know what will I get for my result...but anyway I think I already give out my BEST to do my SPM last year... HUH!!! Worrying if my result is not good enough...how am I going to apply for any scholarship... my aim is just simple... I just want to get at least 9As...So that I can at least get 100% waiver from KTAR... but.....

I really don't have any ideas on what result will I get... no confident at all....
Anyway....just hope for the best!!!
I believe tomorrow will be a great day!!!... I hope so............

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ARRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am very angry and just angry la....
Today as normal go working at 8.20am. Once i reached my office, the door was locked.
Then I just have to go next door and take the key to open the door....Then I carried out my daily duty as usual....
Then a -tu--d lady from the HR came in and ask me whether I know that here cannot wear jeans and why I am wearing jeans to work. Buffalo arr....How I dare to wear jeans to work?? My mom also won't let me wear la......
That pants I already wear since I am working here.....and now only that -tu--d lady say it is jeans....
I really don't know whether her eyes got problem or not!!! Can't she differentiate jeans and normal pants???
ARRR!!!! BITCH ARR....!!!!!
I hate get scolded early in the morning for no reasons......
I hate working!!!! I want to quit but I am sure mom won't let me do it......
Salary also not yet give me then come and scold me.....BUFFALO BITCH LADY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am almost like a volcano that will explode anytime.....so don't make me angry anymore!!!!!!!!

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Friends? Actually I seem to have forget the meaning of friends.

If I am not mistaken, friends are the close companion of we, human beings....which can share happiness and of course unhappiness and some even can share difficuties together. I even look up the online dictionary.....FRIEND means "A person other than a family member, spouse or lover whose company one enjoys and towards whom one feels affection"

Yesterday, I went out with Wai Sam.....after that we went to "yum cha" with Ai Nee and Keen Wai. And from they, I know I have been the frog under the coconut shell. I am so "grey-hearted" after knowing that my "friends" have come back from genting. But they didn't find me...or even send me a sms. I realised that all my friends had gone....gone forever and never will meet me again....I am so disappointed. Those who have been sitting behind me and beside me during school time....all are fake friends....NONE of them are TRUE friends....

OMG, I feel so scary! How can people change so easily?? Just two months.......everyone change...but maybe even me have changed...Just that I have not change too much..

FRIENDS................where are you?? Please don't forget me!!! CCY....hope you get a job soon!!
OMG....February is coming soon!!! Before that.....HAPPY CHINESE 牛 YEAR!!!! Hope I can find my TRUE and BEST FRIENDS soon....!!!


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HAIZ!!!! Why mom so troublesome geh??? CNY also want me go work arr??? HUH......that RM70 also want count??? No then just no la......I don't care!!!! I just don't want to work on the third day of CNY...Please don't force me arr.......if not I am going to get mad soon......Aiya!!! just joking one la.......cause no one will be able to force me do something that I don't like.......

CHEH......but so often that I was forced to do so many things that I don't prefer.....For example: working.....I am so lazy to work but in order to get some money to buy my desire laptop.....I just take the job to fill up my free time at home.....But this helped me a lot as I feel bore at home already....as mom always urge me to work...,so FAN....Thus, I feel working is better than staying at home and listen to her "lecture"......Anyway.....two days more and CNY will come....I am so looking forward toward this BIG day.....where I can wear my new clothes....wakakaa!!!

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OMG!!! Help! Help me, please!!!!
Today I go to laminate some paper...when I first started laminate, I put in one piece of paper into that machine...but it never...NEVER come out...!!!!

What had happened???? As I am blur blur geh, I asked for help lo..., when they checked and they said nothing left inside that machine....aiyo!!!! How can like this geh..!!!!!!!! My document really stucked inside but they said “No...nothing inside!!”

Now I really hope that nothing is inside that machine....cause if that machine spoiled. I am not able to pay for it....haven't get my salary yet....

But if that piece of paper is not left inside then.....where have it gone??? Oh....working is so troublesome la....!!! I wished I could go back to school.....enjoying life everyday....Why must us grown up???? Why everything can't be the same forever????

But I pray to God that they will not find that paper forever..........or just can find after I end my contract here.....which I mean after March....

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