You've got an awful thinking on your mind right now -- but so does everyone else! You may need to step back and let people go through their own business; save your thoughts and opinions for a later time.

Wow....so accurate la....tis horoscope reading....!!! i really got an awful thinking on my mind right now.......but i dun noe whether others are oso same like me or not.. As i am quite a stubborn person.....i dun noe how to step back...really can help with my bad characteristic.... today have been a sad day for me......

Today......i sleep until 10.30am oli wake up....so tired la.....after tat...have "pan mee" as my breakfast....so yummy la... then i juz walking around de house lo...doing nothing la...see having a such boring day....then at 1.30pm.....my mum cum home n fetch me n my brother to my grandma's house....having lunch lo...but i din eat a lot cuz no appetite....then go tuition lo......today got exam la.....but i cannot finish all de questions....so sad la....

after tuition....i went home lo.....i go to my mum's room....i sleep on the bed.....i start to think about many things.....such as the scout n others school de things...n something that i hope to do....but my mum din support me oso....i am so heart broken .......sob.... i started ...................................................to.........................tears started to roll to my cheek........yes i am crying..........i dun noe why suddenly i will cry de....then ran back to my room to cry " sepuas-puasnya".......after crying for almost an hour.....my emotion....become stable....back.....but still feel really sad........why my mum like to babble.....then.....later my mum n my brothers went to my grandma's house to have dinner...but i din go.....cuz no mood la...........actually tis is not de first time ......i cried for no reason.........i always like tis de.....me really sot sot de....hahaha

then on9 lo..........go friendster...msn...n oso find the info about great wall of china....n oso de leaning tower of pisa......but suddenly no internet de line......haiz................so frustrated la.......wan go on9 oso cannot de......y like tis de my life so unlucky......every times oso like tis de...i wan on9 oso cannot........ok lo...then i wait........for so long....juz like ages....at last can on9 back lo....but all my friends oso left aredi...........then off9 lo.....cuz very late aredi.....suddenly......i think about the "sin chew" carnival........i wonder wat will happen in tat carnival.......cuz i am not helping in de carnival..................i am going to enter the "walk a hunt" competition...........i am so tired right now...............ok la......i think it's all for now...................i wan turn off de computer aredi la......i hope that i will have a happy day 2molo le............no mood liao....le

u all sure very boring....rite.....reading my blog......cuz everyday de content oso almost de same de.............me oso dun wan de....but wat can i do.....??? i am tat type of person ma...........BORING gurl.............haiz.............

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Almost forgot liao today is the summer concert of 8tv.......at last it was held in ipoh....but i din go cuz i dun like lo....house so comfortable....why wan go there wo???? today hav been a very boring day for me...i considered la....

today i got school replacement...but many of my classmates oso din cum.....so bored la...if i noe so many ppl oso din cum....i oso dun wan attend skul 2day la....better sleep at my house......yesterday almost 3 oli sleep la...very "fan" la tis few days.....dun noe why.....but of course..i hav 2 attend skul cuz my mum won't let me "ponteng" de...very "cham" la......go to skul 2day....we r being forced to draw poster of the independence's day celebration.......me myself noe la....that i am bad in drawing..if u ask me to draw...it's juz like calling me to die la.......but luckily....lik wak help me to draw most of the drawing...hehe...i juz do the coloring part oli...after that.....i n my 2 little sister go to geography room to find puan leong lo.....lepak at there oli la....luckily i got the 2 little sis who accompany me....if not i sure will die of being so boring....at skul le....i giv a ride to kar mun n we went to oi kei's house....we chit chat la....they two very funny la....no wonder so many ppl like them la....hehe!!!!!

then i go home at about 1.20pm cuz got tuition ma....long time din go for zaitun de tuition.....cuz of de scout activities la....i hope that those scout de activities won't make me miss my tuition again la...........but i think i sure will miss my tuition as our troop is going to held a modern cooking competition in september 15....n there is oso a.......wat carnival....forget liao wat name le.. but i got take part in the "walk a hunt"...hope can win le....but still one week to go la...but i aredi "tak sabar" liao.....after tuition.......go n watch movie....until i feel so sleepy n i go to sleep liao lo....

very "geram" la.....ppl release my aeroplane....le that sam sam la.....promise wan 2 go to lik wak's house but at last.....say dun wan go liao le ..........so hateful la...tis sam sam.....bad gurl...!!!!
juz on time.....luckily i din sleep until i miss the summer concert....although i din like tis years de summer concert....i still wan 2 watch if not my friends n i din got topic to talk about lo........but actually i really din watch de cuz buzy chatting with my friends on msn lo.....hehe....chat with huey min....yuges...yugathes...n hui qing too.....hav a lot of fun la...chatting v them....while chatting v them....i hav to look for sum information......to do the english ULBS.....so "cham"...ar!!!!!! until now still cannot find de suitable information la.....haizzzzzzzzz........

i really wan to do how is my personalities.......towards my friends.....! tis few days....i am thinking about these things lo.....really make me feel very "fan" la.....Am i juz like a "wood"....do my friends feel boring hanging out v me........WHY i so CARE how ppl think about me??? but i reallly CARE la...how ppl xpecially my friends think about me......!!!! i always scared that i ll lost face in front of my frenz de......i cannot face.....failure de la..........

"In order to succeed, your desire for succeed should be greater than your fear of failure"......tis word by billy ....... is really meaningful 4 me...it is juz like a "pendorong" for me to put aside de fear of failure...in order for me to succeed in my life............

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hA!Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz................wat la tat yoke ling so 8 de.... she go n tell hui xin wat i write until tat hui xin cum n scold me (no la where gt scold juz say say oli la)...never mind la.....but i wan to thank yoke ling jie jie cuz go n promote my blog....gud lo...so that ppl can know wat mei yee think about......i really have no idea of wat i wan to write 2day....cuz 2day ....many things happen around me.....but sum...i really can't write it out.....

today is juz an unluckily day for me......Why i say so.....cuz 2day wake up late jo.....7.10 oli wake up.....then quickly prepare myself n rushed to skul lo....luckily i din "lewat" to skul la...if not i am really in trouble lo..!!! Then i settle down lo.....juz b4 de assembly started.....my dear...hu do u think cum over to my friends n i..??? sure lo....is ai nee la....if not hu else....!!! acTually nothing special....she juz ask us to stay back after skul.....then we started our boring de assembly....while those form 3 students...will be having their trial....last day lo...i think those form 3 de students must be very happy lo.....cuz when i was in form 3 that time....me so overjoyed after my trial finish.....but then of course feel sad la cuz de result no gud...but as i remember......i get 6As n a C in my trial la.....C for my geography lo....

quite boring cuz after physics...n bm...we all go to the computer lab...really bad luck la....the computer that i hav chosen....cannot access to the internet de....so i can juz do my account de homework lo.....i hav think for a long time.....cuz i do not noe how to do the question 4 n 5.....so after i hav done my duty in de library....i go downstairs n ask mun s'ng n mun jee....but both of them oso forget liao how to do....then i ask hui xin lo....she oso de same.....forget liao how 2 do...how can like tis de...???? But anyway thanks for teaching although u all can't help....then dunno why....i can solve de question liao....hihi...so weird la!!!! Oooo.......excited moment is cuming when the bell rang at 12.15pm.....

we all gathered at the lobby n then we go out to the assembly ground....n started marching....."kiri....kiri....kiri....kanan.....kiri....." tat's all we r doing.....quite bored...but i still enjoy it cuz long time din march lo.....miss my old times again la.....so "memalukan" when i see those form 1 de st.john oso can march better than us.....so shame la....then at 1.10 sumthing......i went home cuz have to rush to tuition....so exhausted la.....i hate Friday.....so many tuition packed together....2.oopm until 6.00pm.....different places pulak tu........then go home home n on9 lo until 8.00 sumthing....sam sam cum n find me to go cc.....until i forget to wash de dishes....then when i reached home .....my mum started to scold me.....say that i am not responsible...n like to go out.....hanging around with my friends.....i feel that wat my mum scold me is really correct wo.....
tis few days i oso .....cum out...lepak de... din do homeworks n oso housechores....!!!

wat had happened to me??? last time....i'm not like tis de wo.....if i go out oso....i sure will finish all my housechores first.....n now i am so lazy la....homeworks din finish then copy ppl de xpecially my "lion" de homeworks lo...but i feel tat i am really not responsible...n oso dun not keep my promise...as i hav promise to myself tat i will finish my works without copying...but i can't do it........i really wonder where is that mei yee who r very hardworking n responsible had gone.......i hav to search back that mei yee......i cannot be like tis de wo..........
MEI YEE...........where have u gone????? cum back plz...........

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Today in skul....it's juz very boring.......Why i will boring? mayb cuz 2day many of my friends oso...absense....Wonder wat r they doing when i was studying? I feel that life is really meaningless.....for wat....we r studying so hard....with so much burden........i feel so suffer......i juz thought of giving up everything in my life.........i was very tired everyday.....this few days, i dun noe wat had happened to myself.....i like to sleep during class......mayb cuz i sleep very late le..recently...cuz i think about many nonsense de things.....Now....i attend my account tuition.....i oso will feel sleepy de...WHY? WAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME? I HAVE TO STOP TIS NONSENSE!!!!!At night.....i on9 to find sum sources to make my power point presentation de things.....As usual la....i will open my friendster n oso my msn....cuz wanna chat v friends ma......then i saw hui xin on9 wo.....so i chat with her lo.......in the same time i oso chat with emily n oso yuges.....hui xin n i talk about nonsense la....then i ask her lo...why she is so fierce de wo...then she tell me....that's the real hui xin...she say that she dun like to pretend to be cute or watever la....then i am so curious to noe how ppl think about my personalities.....so i ask her lo wat she thinks about my personalities.....her ans really made me feel so surprise.....she say tat i am a friendly person.....wakakaka!!!! me......FRIENDLY!!!!!......tat must be a joke....but as she says that i am friendly...then mayb la..To me......my personalities are.......i am not confident in watever i did.....i am scared that i will lost face la.........i din dare to know new friends....cuz i dun noe how to communicate with ppl........n i scared they dun wan 2 be my friends....then i will feel so "fish" la....Am i fierce??? Am i talkative?? i am lazy lo......i am tat type of ppl who juz can guide ppl but if me myself do tat stuff....surely fail de........who can tell me wat my real personalities are????????? Cuz myself.....cannot see the real personalities of me myself.....but sometimes i oso cannot differentiate which is the true meiyee....???

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Wow!!! Today....is a quite happy day for me cuz nothing to say about the scouting things!!! Today sum of my friends and i participate in the patriotic singing competition......and we hav..............WON in that competition without any competitors...cuz the other class hav giv up...sure la...ur class so "keng"......so they scared aredi....but we hav to perform again on the 30th August......so lazy la ....win aredi still got to perform!!!!haizzzzzzzz.....! Today at tuition.....feel so sleepy....din listen to my ah sir oso.....luckily after i washed my face i din feel so sleepy la.....still can listen a little bit....but i am very blur la about tis topic "HEAT"......wanna get mad ge le!!!! aT night......sam sam, wilson, ivis, carrot, stephanie and me.....almost forget my son, chun chun went to MM....we chat-chat lo.....after that we all go to CC.....me help them lo.....to make accounts.....and blog oso......wonder when i can see their blogs?????? But something very weird la.....cuz i aredi help sam sam to make a friendster account.....and ivis oso add her de le ma....but juz now i check her account....the friendster state that her account din not exist wo???? So weird la!!!!! ok la......actually nothing special to say la......wanna stop la......cuz i wanna finish up my tuition de homework.........gud night....!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am sorry to my blog....cuz aredi 2days din post any blog.....cuz i am really buzy... Yesterday is my friend de bufday...my friends and i go celebrate with him...hav a lotz of fun...maybe because yesterday....watch tv until 1am...i feel so sleepy 2day.....i sleep during my maths period...cuz we all at the "bilik media"....very comfortable...got air-con and that room is very dark de..that's why i feel so sleepy...the teacher then cum n wake me up...but i still continue my sleep...after that period, we go back to our class until 2.30pm...skul finish...but still cannot go home la...Poor...mei yee...hav to march...after that got "MKP" meeting.....at about 3.30pm...i oli reach back to my house...after having my lunch...i rest for a while..then went to my mum's room to take a nap..but actually not a nap...i sleep until i miss my history tuition again....i always miss my tuition de lo.....i wish i got go tuition 2day la....i juz wake up....when wai sam sms me to call me to go to her house to check his computer....i am so sorry la cuz cannot help her to fix her computer cuz i juz know use the software but i din know how to fix a computer la.....then i do my homework after i take my bath and hav my dinner....i juz now oli finish doing my chemistry notes.....now it's aredi 11.00pm....i hav discovered that my lifestyle is very boring....xpecially 2day.....like this i hav wasted my 23hours doing nothing......WHY my LIFE so BORED de??????? At last there is one day.....that i didn't mention any scouting activities in my blog.....! That picture very nice le! he is the founder of scout...he is LOrd Baden poWell.....

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Today have been a busy day to me.......In the morning as early as 6.00am...i woke up and prepare myself cuz today is the merdeka run......What a bullshit my friends are....as we have discussed to go to have breakfast at ghany at 6.45am...but when i reach there....nobody is at there which i mean my friends la...then i have to go home lo....after that ..wilson called me...and i went to his house n find him to gather at the "dataran kampar"...when we reach there....i saw ivis and pik qi having their breakfast....i hate ppl who always broke their promise n din not keep on time......At about 8.15am, we started our run.....me as usually dun prefer running...thus i juz walk lo..n when my friends ask me to run...then oli i will run de lo.... i am so satisfied with myself about the running things....cuz i finally got a certificate that about sport de.....so happy....But i am really in a hurry.....as i got "masakan rimba" competition at the complex n we all have to gather at there at 10.00am....but when wilson and me reach there.....many ppl oso not yet come.....so angry la...cuz not on time again.....thus de competition have delay for a hour that's means it started at 11.00am....that time de weather really hot la...i sweat a lot la.....finally the winner of the day...is announced....and emily's patrol has won de champion....but i see ai nee ad shok yien were very mad about the results....they find it so unfair.....but to me it's nothing as we have try ur best aredi le ma.....we juz go there to get more experience and the winning things is juz a reward.....but never mind la....ur troop win wo....should be happy la right....dun noe la wat they think about...!!!????
Then at night....at 6.30pm....my mum, stephanie, sam sam, wilson and me went to KTAR as we all want to watch the KTAR orientation night.....during the programme.....i enjoy the break dance a lot.....very cool la....then the finalist oso very "leng zai" and "leng lui" de....i found out that M2 is very handsome n cute la......hihi.......AT last M4 and F4 won the title of mr and ms tarcian.....they oso won the best couple award....enjoy the performance but seem like tis year de orientation night isn't that's fun....i really miss those time de orientation night as the mc are really funny de...and their eng are much more better....maybe sum days in de future.....i oso got chance to take part in the orientation la....mayb as a mc oso gud la.......After that.......my mum drive us home....we all cycle to "Maha Maju"....to yum cha la....then we talk about ai nee....she seem very very bad la......she "telah menyalahgunakan kuasanya"...i found out that many of her friends oso dun like her de.....so sad la...wat to do....Nothing la....right.....i think it's all for 2day blog.....i wanna get enough sleep as tomorrow...we go to the temple to get rewards....so excited la...cuz got money ma.....wakakaka...................

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I am so tired right now but i still cannot sleep as i am waiting for ai nee to pass me the coconut shells to be cleaned.......I suppose to sleep now since tomorrow i got take part in the merdeka run.....i should have enough sleep......Juz now i and the other scouts who are taking part in the "masakan rimba" contest were gathered at mr leong's house.....There, i learned how to make spoon and fork out of "buluh"....it's s so interesting la.....i am so enjoy making those utensils.....It have been ages....i have not learned something new since hing wai left us.....Today after school.....i saw those form 1 de st.john are trained by their senior.......i remember that time when i first join the scout.....with pei shin and mabel.....but finally both of them left scout already and joining the gurl guide......juz left me behind....I really really miss that time.....i juz wanna go back when i was in form 1....when i was juz a little gurl (can be considered la).....wat oso dunnoe de little girl.....after tonight.....i have made up my mind......i would like to resign from my post.......and i think i will hand the letter to wilson after the competition and after i have discussed with puan lee...I really dun wan to get involve in SCOUT anymore....When i refresh back my memories....juz now me, wilson and emily go to buy something....when we go to mr leong's house that time.....i got talk about my wish to resign..... then i remembered wilson got say we juz do our part and we juz enjoy the moment with our friends....tis is wat i get from wat he say.......yup... i think most of you are thinking juz like him....appreciate the friendship....but if wilson got read tis....i wan to tell him that....."I din find any friends in scout.....i noe u and emily are very close friend.....but until tis moment i can't even find a trusted friend in my life.....so i think i dun need to appreciate everyone of you..especially scout...." For me.....in scout oli will make me feel angry with my friends....thus i dun wan to talk about SCOUT with my friends" I hope wilson dun always talk de SCOUT things in front of me.....i will feel very tension oli.......although in the past i really enjoy it....OK la....i actually dun like talking about SCOUT stuff but recently many things about scout is happening around me....I feel so tired......OMG.....it's almost 12.58am lo......i will continue my blog tomorrow...i hope tomorrow i can write something happy de la....coz every day de blog oso so sad de.....GAMBATEH KENIX!!! hope my team can win la in de competition 2moro...AR..................rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..........2moro have to wake up early cuz promise liao wan 2 go eat breakfast de.........ok la i really wan to stop lo...i wan to have a bath then i wan to sleep....i sleep not because i wan to hide myself...i sleep juz to prepare myself so that i can walk further.....!!!!

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Oo.....dun be surprise of wat i write!!! I am so angry right now that i dun have other words to describe my feelings right now.......FUCK! Why i am so angry le??? Actually me today is in a very gud mood cuz today i have done my oral test for bahasa melayu and i get full marks of it. Moreover today....there are not so much homework so i think i can relax a bit after my account tuition....but suddenly i saw a message in my phone...OMG! the msg is from ai nee! so i think that's not a gud news....She called for an urgent meeting....Ok lo...i go for the meeting. After the meeting....my anger can't be control anymore.....i juz wanna to release all my anger....but i keep myself under control....So now i use blogging as the way to express all my feeling about tat particular "meeting". I am being forced to take part in the "masakan rimba" contest.......Why she wan us to take part? why she dun ask de member to take part...???? why? why? why? see i gonna crazy!!!! ok....i think i dun wan take part de la.....but when i went home......i saw her msg again...she ask me to join her group.....i noe that she as the KK oso "very tired" but me juz a "fei cai"....juz left me behind la...less me one person won't affect anything de la........I am very very very TIRED LA.........if she still force me to do things that i dun like......i think i have to use my last choice......which is sacrifice the post of the APL since i oso dun like to become a APL de la....I DUN WAN to be part of de MKP.......i wan to resign.......tomorrow i'll ask puan lee about the co-curriculum marks.....if it won't affect much of my marks....BUT if she still force me until i can't even breathe.....i will not juz resign of the post.....i will resign from the SCOUT oso.......For wat doing sumthing that u dun like to do.....there is no point doing sumthing that is not making u happy......u'll feel very suffering......that wat i feel now......Actually the main reason that i dun wan to take part is that i will surely feel very tired after the running....U think i still gt so much energy to cycle from TBB to the Kompleks Sukan.....and the other reasons is i dun wan to miss my tuition anymore.....i dun care la if ai nee and the others are so willing to go as they r so bright students.....me not same....i can't miss for tuition anymore.....i wan to study well.....i dun wan to disappointed my parents who are so tired working to earn money for me to study not for me to join a competition to buy chicks and fish......so like cooking....go home and help ur mother to cook la.....take part in such a competition for wat!!!!! Despress!!!!! i think i should go to see the caunselor so that she can help me.... I dun wat to talk about it anymore......i dun wanna to take part.....KILL me la.......than forcing me doing the things i dun prefer......i am totally disappointed now!!!! NO MORE SCOUT and CO-CURRICULUM

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Oo.....i am going to be crazy coz i hav waited for half a day....until i can post tis blog.....this is bcoz the line of the internet isn't that gud tis few days...........Actually........since we have chosen the next year commitee for the scout.....i isn't that happy coz i din get a gud post.......but never mind la.......at least a discipline master (pengawai disiplin)..is consider ok la... but tis few days...i am wondering whether i am one of the commitee or not...? Am i de pengawai disiplin? Somehow i think i'm not the discipline master as everything about discipline..is juz none of my business.....i'm totally disappointed with the scout....I dun like to march.............i dun wan join the meeting.................i dun wan to involved in the SCOUT anymore.....there are no sweet memory for me anymore in SCOUT since hing wai left.........I am very tired la......i wan to stop....i wanna to stop every single activities that all about scout....But i din dare......coz i scared that tis will affect my Co-curriculum.... Why can't they giv me some times for me to relax and i juz wanna to concentrate in my studies? Oooooo............wat should i do? Should i stop? This is all the questions that will always come to my mind.......Oo....my jesus.........can u plz give me sum guidance on wat should i do? Moreover, nowadays.....scout is juz like a burden to me.....not like in the past....that time i really enjoy doing the scout activities although we march under the hot sun....we never complain....I really hope that i can go back when i was in form 1....when i was only a member "zai".....Miss tat time a lot...........!!!! Now i feel very tension when wilson ask me whether i wanna go for the JD exam.......i really wanna to go but for wat i go now??? i dun think that i still got time for me to take the king scout's exam......Ooo......i dun wanna to think about scout now....!!!! Coz it'll make me get headache!!!! my head juz like wan to explode lo......so painful....Ok la, i think that's all for today la......may GOD bless me!!!!! Gud Luck to myself.............la

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