今天我很不开心。The reason I feel unhappy is my family is not supporting on me.

Hey, do you that I have a lot of stress these days?? I just want to express my unsatisfactory towards something. Why can't you just understand my conditions?? Always telling me that others didn't complain this and that while I always complaining everything. Hey, come on!! Why should others tell you their feelings...if they really have problems, they also won't tell you everything la...you are not their family.

Do you have ever supporting on my decision?? No!!! You didn't!!! Whenever I complain about my college life. You will always splashing me with cold water. You always say "You should study for Form Six. Then you can enter local university." But do you really understand what my wants are??? I don't like Form Six since I was in Form 4. I hate Form Six!!

Whatever I done is wrong. On the other hands, whatever both your son do is always right. They play the computer all days, you won't make a single noise but if I play the whole days, you will start scolding me. Even your son fails his Add Maths, you never ask him not to play the computer. He always msn with girls and you never scold him. This is really unfair.

I don't mind that you do not support on me. But please don't make me question on my decison that I have made. Oh, please la...KCL!! You only get ? marks for your Add Maths and you even XXXX 4 of your subjects in the MYT. You tries to make fun of me. Saying that if I am a lawyer, I will become 哑巴 when I see the judge. What about you?? You will piss in your pants when you see the judge la. What I hate the most is that you support your son and together making fun of me. I tell you, I HATE you!!! And I am warning you, KCL. You don't ever making fun of me anymore, you idiot buffalo!!! You think you are very smart, gah??? Please stop dreaming la!! I tell you, I won't let myself fail the exam geh!! I want to prove to you that among your children, I am the best. The ends.

Friend, thanks for your comment. About the interview that day, I think I had passed la...feel so surprised.


T.T crying kenix signing out at 2.43am

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Today suppose to be a day to be remembered as I will be going back to school to take prize for SPM. This should be a happy day for all of us. But all this had turned into a DISASTER.

Today I went back to school at around 9.10am. I just wear a slack and a t-shirt with some words on it as I don’t have any other proper wear. I thought that as I was not wearing any jeans, I will be okay. But those blind people really can’t differentiate slack and jeans. But after I tell that what I am wearing is not jeans but slack, they have nothing to say and just say “Okay, you can go.” But once I turned and wanted to went upstairs…I was stopped again by -a---n. Can you guess what she says to me?? Oh... 我的天! She said that my t-shirt got the word “WHISKY”...and says “How come you wear a t-shirt like that in this kind of function?”

Oh, Madam...Whisky is just a normal word what... If I am wearing a shirt with the words like SEX or F--K, then you scold me la... I really can’t stand this school la... What the hell... I am so frustrated that time... Hey, come on!! Who will look so detail on my t-shirt? Then I said that my house is far away but they say I so smart in giving reasons. If I am not smart, I will not be here today. But they insisted that I go home and change my cloth. Okay, as Puan Leong advises me to go home and change, so I went home. But all my other t-shirt doesn’t suit with my slack. So after thinking for a while, I decided to wear my new skirt and long sleeve t-shirt. Oh my god, how come the teachers and those guests so troublesome ones! This time is even worse than the previous one. This time they say my skirt is short and my t-shirt is tight.

Crazy de meh?? My skirt is just 1cm above my knee. If this consider short, I really don’t know how to measure long? Hey, we’re young girls not “mak cik”! What they assume us to wear? My t-shirt is tight? I think that is not called tight but fit. Of course, when we buy t-shirt, we will choose the ones which fit us and not too loose. Is that right? I think if I really wear I loose t-shirt, they will complain that I look untidy. So I really don’t know what they want us to do?

This school no hope already ge la...Give people some reward also noisy here and there. Hey, give some face to us la, we just come back and take prize only what. Just tolerate a bit la. We’re no longer the student of this school, can’t they treat us as outsiders. Busybody only...why don’t they scold the parents who are not properly dressed?? Crazy de... I feel like crying...(my tears are falling down to my cheek) You won’t understand how I feel that time...so bad.

So disappointed that I can’t get my prize myself even though I wear so formal already. Hey, that is my office wear!! Not formal enough meh?? Haiz....really not in a good mood today!!!

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 11.40pm

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yesterday is my first day back to school........
first day back to school....already being catch by that bat po(_d_) she so sibuk....go catch ppl......
so geram......la......
then go back class....no table n no chair for us.........wait for so long oli gt table 4 us........huh!!!
then today........having the first class of study.....by our most hardworking teacher......."mR hO"......haha......so geram with his set of microphone..............keep sounding some beeping sound.....so irritating...............n his lecture....making us falling to deep sleep......that's why i say mr ho is a great hypnotist......
haha.......
aiyo......today saw someone that i very miss near the street.............i really miss that person la....wonder when i can see my frenz..........n my frenz call me tat...........(something tat make me feel unhappy)......aiyo....i muz go take undang test as soon as possible.......wonder when i can go le.........????

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i really dun understand why nowadays.....scout seem very hateful to me.........i dun understand.....why those AJK can ask ppl cum for meeting as they like....din they understand ppl life not juz for SCOUT, SCOUT...n SCOUT de....ppl got other things to do de ma..............haiz.................now....even go to gathering oso hav to make "perjanjian".....need to sign the surat...........macamlah saya ni........pesalah.....yang akan melanggar undang-undang yang ditetapkan......................hihihi...........why suddenly write liao malay ge???? watever la......now very geram le........meeting....meeting.....meeting ur head meh.........................s2pid --rr-- ...............ok la............wan go to bed lo....cuz 2 moro oso gt MEETING.............................

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actually how is the feeling of being a happy person.........???? happy??? i think in my dictionary....there is no the word "happy".....i really dun understand why i always feel sad n depressed de.....??? although i noe......as i am living in this beautiful world.......i should enjoy n be happy every second of it.....but juz dun noe how to express that feeling......i juz feel sad la.........others ppl holidays..........happy...go here n there for vacations.....but for me.........i hav no where to go........i juz can hang around at my tiny little room oli........facing the four walls........i wan to be happy.......OMG.....i think abt it n i found out that i haven't be really happy this year.........this year is really a terrible year for me la....everything i hav done this year seem bad.......no matter in wat category........but xpecially de scout la.........yesterday i read back my blog..........i feel very sad.........for wat's happening to de SCOUT this year..............i really "sai sam" lo.....to SCOUT.....but i think problems will exist next year...........n many problems are cuming......but i think it is already none of my business la....but it is better dun involve me in those troubles jau ok la.............next year..........is CCY really transfer to sentosa .......but y can he be so "cekal" ke....say wan transfer jau transfer ke??? i really wanna salute him lo.............another things tat i am unhappy of is y sum of my frens is so irresponsible ke?? borrow liao ppl things dunno return back....??? ppl ask liao still dun wan return ka??? i really hate this kind of ppl ge la....so hateful la.............ok la..........this few days..........i hav insomnia again.........so tmr i wanna write a blog abt my history or mayb a blog abt me myself ge la........if i gt on9.........in the middle of the night..........hahaha!!!!

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