Today is the beginning of another new chapter in my life where I started my new life as a college student at TAR College. It’s a totally different lifestyle I have never experienced before. Why I say so??? It’s because I started this whole new life all by myself. Now I am thinking about my friends… I miss them so much!!! I wish they can study with me but I know the wish will never come true.

Today when I reached the college main gate, I feel so nervous and strange of that place even though I have been there for many times already and I even worked at there before. This reminds me about my working experience as an Examination Attendant. After registered, I went to Auditorium to collect my t-shirt and a file. Huh…, the t-shirt is so large for me!!!

I was grouped into GROUP 13. After we introduced ourselves, we were told to think a slogan for our group. Haha… we don’t have to think of it as our AGF had think the slogan for us. The slogan sounds like this:
Group 13… we’re the best
Group 13… we beat the rest
Group 13… sakai sakai sakai all the way………
Ma Chi Ke Ni………

Hmm… I feel so glad that I can make some new friends today. They are Cu Van, Xiu Juan and Carmen. Three of them are really friendly and funny. After lunch, we have our Mass Call where we need to read our declaration. Then we have to listen to Dr.Choy’s talk. After the event, we were told that we will be having a “Talent Time” this coming Friday. As Nerriza (our group AGF) draws the number 1, we have to dance. OMG!!! Dancing? Dancing is my weak point…I can’t dance!!! Nerriza told us to think what dance to be performed but of course we can’t think of it la…

She told us if we can’t think of a dance, she will ask us to dance SAKAI dance as our group is the sakai group…. Wakakaka!!! So crazy!!! Huh, tomorrow will be a tough day for me as three of my new friends told me that they will not be coming tomorrow. Aiyo…, I will be lonely Kenix tomorrow!!! Never mind lolz…cause I already used to it. All I need to do is to wish myself “good luck”!!! [^O^]

signing out @ 11.33pm by kenix

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Today suppose to be a day to be remembered as I will be going back to school to take prize for SPM. This should be a happy day for all of us. But all this had turned into a DISASTER.

Today I went back to school at around 9.10am. I just wear a slack and a t-shirt with some words on it as I don’t have any other proper wear. I thought that as I was not wearing any jeans, I will be okay. But those blind people really can’t differentiate slack and jeans. But after I tell that what I am wearing is not jeans but slack, they have nothing to say and just say “Okay, you can go.” But once I turned and wanted to went upstairs…I was stopped again by -a---n. Can you guess what she says to me?? Oh... 我的天! She said that my t-shirt got the word “WHISKY”...and says “How come you wear a t-shirt like that in this kind of function?”

Oh, Madam...Whisky is just a normal word what... If I am wearing a shirt with the words like SEX or F--K, then you scold me la... I really can’t stand this school la... What the hell... I am so frustrated that time... Hey, come on!! Who will look so detail on my t-shirt? Then I said that my house is far away but they say I so smart in giving reasons. If I am not smart, I will not be here today. But they insisted that I go home and change my cloth. Okay, as Puan Leong advises me to go home and change, so I went home. But all my other t-shirt doesn’t suit with my slack. So after thinking for a while, I decided to wear my new skirt and long sleeve t-shirt. Oh my god, how come the teachers and those guests so troublesome ones! This time is even worse than the previous one. This time they say my skirt is short and my t-shirt is tight.

Crazy de meh?? My skirt is just 1cm above my knee. If this consider short, I really don’t know how to measure long? Hey, we’re young girls not “mak cik”! What they assume us to wear? My t-shirt is tight? I think that is not called tight but fit. Of course, when we buy t-shirt, we will choose the ones which fit us and not too loose. Is that right? I think if I really wear I loose t-shirt, they will complain that I look untidy. So I really don’t know what they want us to do?

This school no hope already ge la...Give people some reward also noisy here and there. Hey, give some face to us la, we just come back and take prize only what. Just tolerate a bit la. We’re no longer the student of this school, can’t they treat us as outsiders. Busybody only...why don’t they scold the parents who are not properly dressed?? Crazy de... I feel like crying...(my tears are falling down to my cheek) You won’t understand how I feel that time...so bad.

So disappointed that I can’t get my prize myself even though I wear so formal already. Hey, that is my office wear!! Not formal enough meh?? Haiz....really not in a good mood today!!!

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 11.40pm

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Huh!!! After two and a half months working at UTAR, I finally ended my contract yesterday which was earlier than my actual ones. But anyway...happy to be free again. Yeah...I can start planning what to do in the coming 3 weeks. Hmm... want to go for vacation but don't know whether success or not. Normally won't success one... Then I wish to dye my hair and straighten it too. Planning to do many things but my budget is not enough...Haiz!!! Still haven't get my salary yet. But one plan must be on...the plan to go Ipoh to buy my working shirt and shoes. Oh...still have to work in April but I be working at KTAR this time.

Yesterday have a lot of fun. Go out for a drink at Maha Maju with Lik Wak and others. Hmm...looks like Lik Wak was the earliest one who go study in our class. He'll be go to LimKokWing UC to study Interior Design. Hope he will be fine there...

As for me is just like what I had planned earlier which is going to KTAR to study Accounting. Hope this is the correct way for my future. Still have a bit worry about it. Aiyo...don't know what to write liao?? Feeling a bit sleepy... I think I should take a nap now. Sayonara...see you again my blog...XD


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Oh, I am so disappointed about my result!!!
I just get 8As...which consist of 6A1 and 2A2.....
Hmm...the rest better don't tell...because I feel so embarrasing!!!
I get B3 for my EST which I thought it was a mistake... I don't believe that I get a B for my EST...
And what is more terrible is my Physics and Biology... As a Science student, I really out of idea why am I getting such a bad result for both my Science subject... a B4 for physics and a C6 for biology....
I feel so sad when I saw my Biology result...
Now... I think I can't do anything!!!
But what I want to do now... is to check back my EST result... and just hope I an get can A back...
Now only I know... without an A... it is difficult to apply for any scholarship!!!
But I really want to congratulate all my friends who get an excellent result...
HAIZ!!!... I feel so shame to let people know about my result!!!
Anyway hope for the best!!!

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 3.50pm

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12/3/09. This date represents a very important day in my life. One week before my birthday and also the date that I will be getting my SPM result. Hmm... a bit nervous!!! I don't know what will I get for my result...but anyway I think I already give out my BEST to do my SPM last year... HUH!!! Worrying if my result is not good enough...how am I going to apply for any scholarship... my aim is just simple... I just want to get at least 9As...So that I can at least get 100% waiver from KTAR... but.....

I really don't have any ideas on what result will I get... no confident at all....
Anyway....just hope for the best!!!
I believe tomorrow will be a great day!!!... I hope so............

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 11.10pm

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ARRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am very angry and just angry la....
Today as normal go working at 8.20am. Once i reached my office, the door was locked.
Then I just have to go next door and take the key to open the door....Then I carried out my daily duty as usual....
Then a -tu--d lady from the HR came in and ask me whether I know that here cannot wear jeans and why I am wearing jeans to work. Buffalo arr....How I dare to wear jeans to work?? My mom also won't let me wear la......
That pants I already wear since I am working here.....and now only that -tu--d lady say it is jeans....
I really don't know whether her eyes got problem or not!!! Can't she differentiate jeans and normal pants???
ARRR!!!! BITCH ARR....!!!!!
I hate get scolded early in the morning for no reasons......
I hate working!!!! I want to quit but I am sure mom won't let me do it......
Salary also not yet give me then come and scold me.....BUFFALO BITCH LADY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am almost like a volcano that will explode anytime.....so don't make me angry anymore!!!!!!!!

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Friends? Actually I seem to have forget the meaning of friends.

If I am not mistaken, friends are the close companion of we, human beings....which can share happiness and of course unhappiness and some even can share difficuties together. I even look up the online dictionary.....FRIEND means "A person other than a family member, spouse or lover whose company one enjoys and towards whom one feels affection"

Yesterday, I went out with Wai Sam.....after that we went to "yum cha" with Ai Nee and Keen Wai. And from they, I know I have been the frog under the coconut shell. I am so "grey-hearted" after knowing that my "friends" have come back from genting. But they didn't find me...or even send me a sms. I realised that all my friends had gone....gone forever and never will meet me again....I am so disappointed. Those who have been sitting behind me and beside me during school time....all are fake friends....NONE of them are TRUE friends....

OMG, I feel so scary! How can people change so easily?? Just two months.......everyone change...but maybe even me have changed...Just that I have not change too much..

FRIENDS................where are you?? Please don't forget me!!! CCY....hope you get a job soon!!
OMG....February is coming soon!!! Before that.....HAPPY CHINESE 牛 YEAR!!!! Hope I can find my TRUE and BEST FRIENDS soon....!!!


#~signing out --kenix~# 12.18pm

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HAIZ!!!! Why mom so troublesome geh??? CNY also want me go work arr??? HUH......that RM70 also want count??? No then just no la......I don't care!!!! I just don't want to work on the third day of CNY...Please don't force me arr.......if not I am going to get mad soon......Aiya!!! just joking one la.......cause no one will be able to force me do something that I don't like.......

CHEH......but so often that I was forced to do so many things that I don't prefer.....For example: working.....I am so lazy to work but in order to get some money to buy my desire laptop.....I just take the job to fill up my free time at home.....But this helped me a lot as I feel bore at home already....as mom always urge me to work...,so FAN....Thus, I feel working is better than staying at home and listen to her "lecture"......Anyway.....two days more and CNY will come....I am so looking forward toward this BIG day.....where I can wear my new clothes....wakakaa!!!

~# signing out ~* kenix @ 11.45am

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OMG!!! Help! Help me, please!!!!
Today I go to laminate some paper...when I first started laminate, I put in one piece of paper into that machine...but it never...NEVER come out...!!!!

What had happened???? As I am blur blur geh, I asked for help lo..., when they checked and they said nothing left inside that machine....aiyo!!!! How can like this geh..!!!!!!!! My document really stucked inside but they said “No...nothing inside!!”

Now I really hope that nothing is inside that machine....cause if that machine spoiled. I am not able to pay for it....haven't get my salary yet....

But if that piece of paper is not left inside then.....where have it gone??? Oh....working is so troublesome la....!!! I wished I could go back to school.....enjoying life everyday....Why must us grown up???? Why everything can't be the same forever????

But I pray to God that they will not find that paper forever..........or just can find after I end my contract here.....which I mean after March....

~# signing out #~ kenix @ 3.49pm

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Today.....I go learn parking
I feel so sad and I don't know what reason that make me feel sad??
Maybe because I am undergoes a lot of PRESSURE....erh!!
My driving skill today is bad.....and just more simple to say TERRIBLE
and that "UNCLE" keep on saying that I am very bad in driving.....
Oh man, please la...Under the hot sun, who can stay.....I almost very sunburn lo???
Moreover, this week I really didn't have a good sleep also!!!
Camp, camp and CAMP!!! ALL stuff is making me so STRESS!!!!
Even though I don't have anything to do.....hahaha
Am I going to pass my driving test??? And now....I even feel unsure whether I can pass my motor test or not???
May Lord gives me STRENGTH to overcome ALL my STRESS.....and I hope I can pass my test once....As my money almost finish le....Lacking of money...making me so sad..
May GOD bless me!!!

~# signing out ~# kenix @ 3.42pm

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